Confusing Love

Admit it

''You like Ryan...don't you'' Elle's voice says through the phone. I'm in my room, while Ryan's downstairs watching TV. This is the second day he's been here. But he's leaving at 3pm ''No, no way'' I say. She starts to laugh ''Yeah, sure'' she says, clearly not believing me ''Anyway, i have to go, my grandma is here'' She says, and then hangs up. I run downstairs and sit on the couch next to him.

Admitting that i like Ryan is just weird. But i did like him when we first met...is it really that weird? I remember going to school a week after the incident, and walking down the hallway, i bumped into a guy with curly blonde hair and our books went flying all over the place. I couldn't help but let out a small laugh ''sorry'' i said. He sat on the ground and started to pick up his books, and i sat down next to him to help. ''Its fine'' He said, shaking his fringe out of his eyes. I remember looking up and feeling shocked to see Ryan next to me, the guy who saved me, the guy I've been thinking about for weeks. ''Ryan?'' I let out a minty breath. He looked up and gave me a lopsided grin ''Heyyy, its you, Emily right?'' He said, lifting his hand up to his hair and combing it with his fingers. I nod, picking up my books quickly and get up. He did the same. ''Do you need help to find your class?'' i asked. He nodded. He spent everyday with me at lunch, checking out the school, playing soccer and getting to know each other. At that time i didn't have many friends, and he had no one but me because he was new.

But a few months after Year 9 started, Ryan got a girl friend and our friendship and my crush on him slowly drifted away. He ended up hanging out with her instead of me everyday, and for awhile we weren't even talking. Ryan messaged me after 3 and a half weeks of his relationship, and his girlfriend Rose broke up with him a few days later, which i secretly laughed about because it lasted only a month. Ryan started talking to me again, explaining Rose told him that if he talked to me she would break up with him, which explains why she broke up with him a few days after he messaged me...but i always wondered why he risked his relationship just to talk to me.

In Year 10, we expanded our group and got a few other friends. Our group included Elle, Sabrina, Alex, Me and Ryan, and also Jack (Elle's twin brother)

Sitting on a couch next to him right now was weird. ''So, Ryan...you know how you said you liked me the other day?'' I say slowly. ''It happened a few days ago...of course i remember'' He laughs, awkwardly. I nod and laugh. My face starts to go red, and before i could utter another word my sister walks in ''Hey cuties'' She says, walking into the kitchen and grabbing herself a glass of orange juice. ''Hey'' me and Ryan say at the same time, we look at each other and laugh. I see Grace smiling.