Stalemate // The Queens Gambit //Benny Watts x OC

Fourty: Wedding/Eloping

    "We're eloping!"

I stared at Macy for a good few seconds, trying to comprehend what she had said. I started to giggle a little, looking from her to Jamie. She had to be joking, right? This was a big prank, once they'd had their laughs they were going to tell me that the wedding was going to be hosted by some ridiculously famous actor and they were making themselves into ice sculptures.

They both stared back at me like I was crazy. I stopped laughing and stood in shock.

"You're serious?" I asked slowly

"Yes. Why, you really think I'm that shallow??" Macy asked.

"No, no. I'm just surprised—you wanted a big elaborate wedding so badly. When Jamie said you couldn't release a thousand baby doves when you said your vows you cried for three days."

"Alright, I admit I've been a bit of a dramatic diva brat these past few months, but I realized.." she turned to Jamie and took his hand, him smiling fondly at her. "I don't need any of that stuff to marry the man of my dreams."

I smiled a little and went to hug Macy, then Jamie. "That's great. I'm really happy for you guys. And of course I'll be there."

"Yay!! Oh- would you also be my maid of honor?"

"Well of course."

Macy laughed and hugged me again. "Thanks Addy. I'm so excited. It'll be this month definitely. You aren't planning on going on some month long spa vacation, are you?"

"No, I've moved that to next month." I joke. "But.. isn't the whole point of eloping to not plan it?"

"Well just because we're eloping doesn't mean we have to be animals about it!"

I gave Jamie a look, brows raised, and he rolled his eyes and smirked.

"So I'm assuming that means you're still having decorations and such?"

"Well of course. Just because we're eloping also doesn't mean it can't be gorgeous. Look look, I have pictures!" She pulled me over to the couch and opened a huge book with scraps of fabrics and pictures spilling out, flipping to the very back and starting to energetically show me what it was supposed to look like.

We all talked for a while, drinking wine, (only them, since Jamie wouldn't let me) and catching up. It was nice to talk to my friends again, though I couldn't help thinking about what Benny and Beth were up to at this moment.

Macy and Jamie left after an hour and a half and I finally got the quiet I felt like I hadn't had in forever.

I huffed, flopping on the couch and closing my eyes. I heard buzzing in my ears, the silence suddenly too silent. Jeez, there just wasn't any in between, was there?

I sat up and walked into the kitchen, turning the stove on and getting out a mug and tea bag. I sat at the table as I waited for the kettle to boil. I stared at the chess set on the table and thought of Benny again, missing him.

What happened to me? Just a few months ago I was living my life as I always had and I was fine with it. My friends, my mom, my hobbies, my feelings. They were all steady, unchanging, comforting. Then I meet this guy, next thing I know I'm sitting here missing him like some pathetic lovesick puppy. And then my whole life, everything I've always known to be, completely changes. I'm changing myself for him. Was I an idiot? Was I naive? Is it really possible for me to change? Everyone always says that It's impossible to change, that if he or she ever says they're going to change, they never will.

I didn't know if it was true, but the more I thought about it, I decided. No, I wasn't a naive idiot, I had found a new way of life that made me happier, and I didn't want to let it go. I wasn't only changing for him, I was changing for myself, and for everyone else I loved.