Freya's pov
It's been a few days since i've had the tube in, and i'm still not used to it. Its made me depressed. I can't look at myself in the mirror anymore without having a full blown mental breakdown.
Lizzie's been by my side the entire time. She's been worried sick about me and i've tried to make her feel better, but that's just Lizzie.
I haven't left my bed today and I don't plan on doing so. I've found a new show called 'The Rookie". I think i'm a little obsessed with cop shows, but I do want to be a cop as my career. As i'm watching the show, Lizzie knocks on my door.
"Come in." I say, my attention still focused on the TV.
"Hey baby, how are you feeling?" She asks softly.
"What do you think?" I scowl. "Sorry, i'm grumpy. You didn't do anything wrong" I apologize.
"It's okay baby, your going through something extremely tough right now. I'm so so proud of you." She coos, hugging me. "Eugh, you stink!" She says, releasing from the hug.
"Lizzieee." I whine.
"Go shower, Freya. After come downstairs to the kitchen, we are going to try to eat a full meal." She says, leaving my room.
A full meal? What's the point of the tube then. I don't need to eat a full meal, the tube is enough. She's out of her mind.
I strip my clothes and quickly run into the shower.
I genuinely don't think I can even eat a meal without having a panic attack.
I finish showering and throw on some clothes. walk downstairs to see a plate of mac n cheese and Lizzie sitting across from it.
"Hey bubs, how was your shower?" She asks.
"Fine." I mutter.
"Freya, I know this is challenging, but your a strong girl. You can do this, honey." She coos."Lizzie, I can't" I say, tears starting to fall down my face.
"Honey.." She says. "Come, just one bite."
I stare at the plate in front of me.
"I can't do this." I mutter.
"Okay, that's okay. How about a fruit platter?" She asks
"Yes please." I say.
Fruit seems a lot easier to eat right now. It's always been my comfort food. Well, that and ice cream of course.
"Alright Freya, here you go!" Lizzie beams.
"Thanks." I mutter.
I pick up a fork and stab some fruit with it. I stare at my fork for a while before deciding I should probably put it in my mouth.
"I'm so proud of you!" Lizzie coos.This is a lot harder than I thought, but I push through it because i'm going to get rid of it anyway.
I finally finish and excuse myself back to my room to go "watch tv".
I kneel in front of the toilet, making myself get rid of the fruit I just ate. It hurts. My throat burns so badly. It never used to hurt this bad.
"Freya..." Lizzie says, who was leaning at the doorway with a disappointed look on her face.
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Fanfiction15 year old Freya Hart is back at school after 6 months of being in the hospital for Anorexia. Her parents are not the most supportive when it comes to her illness, making Freya feel more alone everyday. When she comes back, she has a new English...