i don't need a xanny to feel better, i need you.
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her hand is clenched in a fist, i know she doesn't want to hit me, she calms herself down that way.
i tried to stay calm, because once i lose my mind it's over.
and if i lose mine, she loses her too...
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(a/n: i was editing this shit for a half hour and i still can't fucking spell everything right i just gave up sorry) -
billie and i are doing tonight a little date at mine, i will order food, we will watch a movie and some romantic shit.
it's our three week anniversary, nothing much happened in the past two weeks tho. i am doing a lot of work, so does she. we are really great.
i haven't met her parents yet, they are on a vacation in europe and will come home next thursday which is 5 days away so i think i'll meet them then.
i had a talk with mom a few weeks ago, i don't know 2 and a half maybe? she said she will try and find a new boyfriend because she is done feeling alone.
we talked about deep shits too, cried a bit then i took her out to her favorite fast food restaurant because she wanted to go on a late night drive around 2am.
we talked about dad, she misses him, like really misses him but she will feel better when she has someone again.
i know she won't ever move on from him, but time will help her heal and accept it.
she ended up staying at mine tho, and i took her home next day.
i've had such a rough almost three months. i changed modeling agency, i am starting to became more and more successful, i have a girlfriend who i love with my whole heart and a world star. paparazzi are getting a lot more than it was.
billie is currently at finnies's, she will come home to me in 2 hours maybe? i am starting to get ready soon because i am bored.
i want to cook homemade burritos. i have to go and buy some beans and plant based milks before cooking because i am out of them.
i also need to do a lil grocery shopping for myself because i don't have energy drinks, protein bars and veggies left in my place.
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i drove up to target to buy the things i need. i was listening to music in the car when billie called me.
"i am about to leave, is that okay if i am early?"
