xanny - billie eilish gxg ff

thirty-three

billie

last part continues

"she is asleep in my room. she's been sleeping for 6 hours now"

"how long it took her to fall asleep?" lani asked me over the phone.

i texted her saying that something is going on with lisa. she was with henri but as soon as she got home she immediately called me.

"she was crying for hours, she cried herself to sleep so really long"

"what even happened?"

"i don't know. i picked her up, something was off she was arguing over money but we talked it through, at mine apartment i fell asleep and i wake up hearing her crying in my shower. i freaked out so i went inside, she cried a lot. then i helped her change and she had a panic attack. i tried to help her calm down, she was keep saying how she is going to die and she can't breathe and i need to help her. it was really scary lani, after that she was keep apologizing and telling me how much she wish i didn't see her like this and that she doesn't want to do this, and that she is tired."

"how much do you know about her mental health from the past?"

"i know she had anorexia, has a bad relationship with her dad and that she was depressed. i don't know the details only about her dad and that she went to psych ward. i know she was hospitalized multiple times and everything. i know she doesn't have a dad anymore tho, but i don't know what happened to him or if he just left or something"

"okay, she still has depression but it's like she is okay but has months or weeks where these depressive episodes come along. it's not bipolar disorder or anything else, she went to doctors and they told her that it's just depression."

"what should i do? i don't want her to feel sad lani."

"i know billie, you can't do much. only way you can help her get through this is that you need to be with her, talk to her, hug her, tell her that she is worth it, that you love her. she is going to make conflicts, but it's not her fault so stay calm and just nod, tell her that you got her and show her that you can talk this through with her. don't let her feel unloved or anything. i am gonna call her later but i won't tell her that you talked to me. you can if you want to but be careful she hates when you tell other's her shit even if it's me. she went through a lot and at the episodes everything replays in her head."

"you make it sounds so scary,"

"she is always arguing when she is stressed." she chuckled.

"yeah i know, but don't worry i got her."

"just don't let her be alone okay? when she is not with me or nat or anyone if you can be with her, face time her or shit. i will do the same, nat will do the same, she is in touch with tara too. she will be fine, just be there next to her. i know she wants you morw than anymore when something is off, she needs your comfort"

she knows something i don't.

"i won't lani, don't worry. i am here for her, i love her okay?"

"yeah i know."

"i gotta go, i'll make her food"

"oh about that, if she doesn't want to eat don't let her not eat but don't pressure it. tell her that it's fine if she takes lil bites in every ten minutes. just make sure she eats her food. three meals a day at least."