i don't need a xanny to feel better, i need you.
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her hand is clenched in a fist, i know she doesn't want to hit me, she calms herself down that way.
i tried to stay calm, because once i lose my mind it's over.
and if i lose mine, she loses her too...
lani is here right now for a half hour, then later i am meeting up with billie because we are going to claudia's event cuz we got invited too.
i am planning on telling the img to lani today, and billie tomorrow since chances are higher and higher. but first i need lani's opinion.
bil is coming right after lani, maybe they will even meet.
"so which dress?"
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"first."
"i like both."
"first, i like it more. claudia will appreciate it more anyways." she said.
"okay."
i tried it on and showed it to lani, "so? how do i look?"
"do your model walk."
i giggled because it's so funny how much she is in love with my model walk.
i walked up to her from the front door to the living room and she cheered to me, i just laughed about it.
"it's fucking great." she smiled.
"so um, henri is here in 10 minutes." i said sitting down on the couch and changing back into my home wear. "i need your opinion on something."
"oh my god?"
"i've been working on this for almost a year now alone, i couldn't tell anyone but like a week ago nat found out, and i need you to tell me what you are thinking about this idea. please don't be mad that i didn't tell you."
she was looking at me with confused face.
"uh, i am like done almost with everything i have to do with this, i already sent an email to them and that's how nat found out tho, they sent an email to her back, not me. but anyways, it seems like that i have a chance at IMG models, probably in los angeles. don't be ma-" i awkwardly giggled but she cut me off.
"WHAT?" she asked as she jumped up. "OH MY GOD ELLYSA!" then hugged me. "OH MY FUCKING GOD!"
i hugged her back and waited until she calms down.
"fuck you for not telling me, but oh my god!"
"sorry," i chuckled. "i promise i have my reasons. but i wanted to tell you before billie because i am afraid that she won't take it well." i said. "nat said that it won't happen that way, but since i asked them if i could work with them and not they asked me, they can place me anywhere, like um to paris in europe."
"oh?" she sat back down on the couch throwing her legs up at the little table.
"again, nat said it won't happen that way, specially because i am a world star, kyle jenner 2.0 and shits but who knows."
