Power Of Love

To Whom It May Concern

"Am I in hell" I mumbled as she was faced with my birth parents "You're manners hasn't changed of course that tyrant didn't teach you how to speak with your elders" my birth father said "Klaus wasn't a tyrant and I only show respect to does who deserve it and you guys do not" I told them. They don't have the right to say that about him. "After everything we have done for you" my birth mother decided to speak. "Other than given me trauma and huge tolerance for wolsbane and vervain you didn't do much" I said and they were taken back by her talked backs. This isn't the Evelyn they remembered she was different and they didn't like that one bit. That's right I fucking changed. "So why am I here? And Why are you here? Like shouldn't you guys you know be dead?" I asked "We made a deal" he said "With the one that brings life and the one that erases it" her birth mother finished. Wait do they mean. "You've got to be fucking kidding me!" 

I couldn't help myself but thinking about Evie. Her touches, her lips, her glittering eyes, I couldn't keep her out of my mind. I tried to distract myself by painting but that didn't work as I was staring at a blank canvas. Then Lizzie came badging in with how she could save me for myself and honestly her crazy plan could be better than self pity. Though when she told me I had to welcome the new students that threw me off talking to strangers no thanks. She went on her long speech really can't believe she is comparing her blindness to seeing how MG was perfect for her to the fact that Evie is dead and I'll never see her again. She then mentioned Josie who was going to the normal school since given up her magic honestly better that she's not here. Get out while you can right? I finally gave in on one condition she does all the talking. No problem she said they will be more students that we won't her our thoughts she said, well she lied cause it was dead. Let's just get this tour over with. 

As Lizzie was showing the students around I get on getting flashes of Evie and that beautiful smile of her and just like that they were fading just like her. Lizzie asked if I indeed to go to the woods to scream apparently I was losing control of my magic, the light going on and off. I told her I was fine cause I'm Hope Andrea Mikaelson I am always fine they all need me to be fine. Though the tour was a bust as none of the other kids came back it seems no one want's to go to a school were the children fight the monsters. Who would've thought? Alaric said we should keep smiling as he and Lizzie left to find a solution. Great now I am alone with MG and Kaleb and not the person that trick me into this goddamn tour! MG left cause he was focusing on himself his words not mine. We really need this to work or else the school will be shut down, but how they hell do we convince them to stay when I don't even want to stay.

We went to the gym to show them the wolf pack got there to Jed at one thousand push up and then acting like he couldn't see us. Maybe we should have focused on acting classes here. Jed was telling them about the pack when Kaleb mentioned I was a wolf to. Why Kaleb why? I may kill you. I was talking about the party we do the ones Evie forced me to go. I need to interact with people she said. Then I thought of her touch the last time we where in the gym playing dodge ball and I guess I lost control again. Kaleb pulled me aside to ask how I was and yet again I'm fine is all I said. I can't lose this school although I don't want to stay because of the memories I can't help but stay for that said reason. This is my home.

Well everyone left so I was leading the tour I showed them the hall where we eat. I told them about how we laugh together then the memories came flooding in. When I saw Amari and Evie dance, when I kissed Evie and we said our I love you, and the musical. That kiss in front of everyone just her and I together always and forever. I lost it I couldn't control it. It was to much I add to. I let it out and sadly sent a huge blast knocking everyone out. Gladly Alaric checked and said they were okay. I though I was fine. I though I could handle it but I ended up messing this up like I always do. As if Lizzie could read my face she told me it wasn't my fault, but it was. It was all my fault.

I rushed to my room everything was shaking and I moved the paint splashing it on the canvas. The shaken finally stopped but there was a black girl at my door on of the to be students, well that's if she decides to be. She was talking to me about how she love to sculpt. Can she leave.  She starts to talk about my painting which I didn't want to talk about. I was meant to be fine I was the strong tribid, but I don't feel strong. She obviously wasn't taken no for an answer claiming she didn't want to get knocked out again and asked me what I saw in the painting apparently she played that game with her sisters. Though it made me wonder what did I see in it?

I saw anger, fear, loss that I won't be able to protect the people I care about. I saw that I would be able to control myself as every place I walk thru I see her. She asked me why I stay here and that was simple because this school is my home. It holds the memories of when I was at my happiest and more myself, this school made me who I am. Why won't I stay? She asked if it was safe and I told her the truth. It is a place where it's safe to be yourself and make jokes and yeah it can be dangerous as dangerous a school with supernaturals can be. I don't know maybe because I told the truth about why we need more students or because I opened up about my feelings but it looked like we got a new student.

I ended up showing my new student who name is Cleo to my room apparently we will be roommates. I hope everything goes well and I know that this is the start to healing. I will never forget about Evie and I'm not sure I can love anyone other than her, but deep down I know she'll want me to move on and stopped holding on to the past. I'll hold on to her in my heart and cherish the times we had together. Well that's easier said than done when even know I still don't believe she's dead say I'm in denial deep down, but I just can't shake this feeling that she somewhere else but not dead.