anxiety

C3: Sweaters & stutters

>>Dylann

I put on my kitty sweater and ripped up tights, then my shorts. I did my hair in a bow, but my bow-shaped hair was bobbing slightly, but I will fix it later.

I gather my John Green books, like Paper Towns, Fault In Our Stars, Abundance of Katherines, and many more. I put the books in my backpack that was covered in the cigarette emoji. and the words 'it's a metaphor' in big black lettering. I threw the bag over my shoulder and grabbed my keys.

I set the house alarm and left the house. I locked the house with my skull key, and ran for my dads car. jumping in, I gave a huge sigh and smile. "ready for your millions of books to be signed by John Purple?" my dad jokes.

"it's John Green, and yes. I am tired lets go. it's nine in the morning! cmon!" I laughed.

🎶🎶🎶

we got to the Coffee Bean and then I jumped out. I snatched up my bag. "bye dad, love yah, meet you at the hotel." I said giving my dad a quick kiss on the cheek and hug. he mutters a quiet 'ditto' and I close the car for.

I ran inside and smiled. John Green sat in front of a line, mostly of girls, smiling and laughing. I went to get myself a drink, but I also thought of getting Luke one before he got here. I'll just PM him to ask.

2:06pm 11/15/14
hey, at coffee bean. what do u want ?? from CB??? I'm already here because of the line...it's getting smaller to JG but I'm getting my drink first. so I thought of you :)) whatcha want? u can't pay so I win :))
-anxiety.

2:07pm
uhhhh...ur paying!? nooo wiat for meeee! an I want a coffee with extra cream :)) it's cloudy and I'm tired as heck :(:
-Luke

2:07pm
yes I shall pay and you gave me your order so to late :) and I agree on the clouds. but I'm picky on weather, but this weather is sweater weather :)
-anxiety

2:08 pm
crap I fell for it.
-Luke

2:09
already ordered :)) it was 9.63 , so suck it up I had a twenty in my back pocket and I forgot. so haha.
-anxiety.

2:11pm
got our drinks :)
-anxiety.

2:18pm
Luke?
-anxiety

2:21 pm
pls reply :( I'm scared .
-anxiety .

Luke didn't reply for a while... so I figured he was taking a well needed shower. but showers can take a while, so I left him alone. my phone buzzed when I was 3 people away from John Green.

2:41
Twitter - 1 second ago
5SOSLuke has replied!
"sorry :( I was getting ready and doing my hair too. no need to freak out :) I'm still here :)"
slide to reply

I smiled and sighed. I put my phone in my pocket. I realized I was in front of John G. "oh, um, hi." I said smiling.

"hello! how are you?" John asked.

"I-I'm g-g-good. wa-waiting for my friend." I said.

"really? where did you guys meet?" he asked signing the third book.

"ugh...we officially met on Twitter... then really met on Skype...and now we are meeting here. and I couldn't see him tomorrow, because it's my birthday. and I wanted to see you, and him. so it makes my day better." I explained.

"careful, he could be anyone." he said finishing the last book.

"okay, good bye." I said. gathering my books, I went to a booth.

"LOVE THE BACKPACK, BY THE WAY!" John called out.

I smiled and gave a quiet thanks. I decided to reply back, to Luke.

3:00 pm
hey :) got finished and I'm waiting on you now :)
-anxiety

3:01
hey why don't you look up for me?? like away from the screen????? thnx.
xxxx
-Luke

I crinkled my nose and knitted my eyebrows together. I looked up to meet blue eyes. deep blue eyes.

"h-hi.." I said taking a breath. I smiled.

"hello, anxiety-girl." Luke said smiling and laughing.

"maybe you should call me dylann in public and anxiety on the phone." I said.

"sounds like a wonderful plan, dylann." he smiled. his lip piercing was a deep, shiny black that made me think less of him.

"so. what's with the...uh...piercing?" I said clearing my throat.

"I see your stuttering is gone, and to be a little rebel or punk rock. y'know??" he said

"uh, yeah." I said. "my stutters come and g-go." dang. they are back.

he smiled a little. I noticed he had an iPhone 6+ and I realized he must've been rich. ah crap, I can't even get a iPhone 5! I only have my iPhone 4s! he could just pay me to do something, dear god.

his eyes were like a trance. a deep blue with small specs of glitter. "u-um...I have a question." he said. he had cleared his throat with some strength. like it hurt to clear it.

"yeah?"

"why does everyone call you anxiety?"

"well, my Twitter name wasn't very common, so I decided to give myself the name Anxiety. I have anxiety. it started when I was nine. I would pretend to be sick so I couldn't go to school to face my fears." I explained. I looked at my latte.

"hey, look up for me." Luke said. he bent his head down slightly to see my eyes. I glanced up.

"anxiety leve-lev-le-levels." I gasped.

"your what?" he pulled together his eyebrows like two brown snakes kissing.

"a-an-anxiety...lev-leve-lev-levels." I said looking at him with a pained look.

he gave a sympathetic look. he is faking that face. he wants me to fall for him. and then he can shatter my heart like a China dolls body. I gasped out. I reached for my bag. finding my phone, I unlock it and call my dad.

"pickle? what's wrong?" my dads deep voice was gentle.

"p-p-panic a-a-a-attack!" I cried out. I grabbed my bag. and looked at Luke. "I am s-so s-s-s-so-sorry, Lucas. I d-didn't know th-this would h-ha-happen." I whispered to him. my eyes became a pool of tears.

his lips parted slightly, leaving a dark slip of black in between them.

my anxiety level was higher than before.

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