anxiety

C16: Thoughts On Dylann

(a/n: THIS IS ALSO SHORT BC YEAH K BAI AND LISTEN TO ALL I WANT BY KODALINE HES THE BEST AND IT GOES WITH THIS ITS CONTINUED K BAI AGAIN)

>> LUKE

her eyes were as bright as the sun, full of care and love. never ending love. and I broke her.

SunShine 6:17 PM
luke...who's the green haired girl? are you cheating on me? I thought i could trust you.

I needed courage to tell her I hooked up with this anonymous girl. The green-girl meant nothing.

Luke 6:28 PM
listen- dyl it was a mistake. I was drunk. I couldn't pick the person to take me home.

SunShine 6:31 PM
all I want is, and all I need is to find somebody that understands who I am. and won't cheat on me. uve failed me. don't talk to me.

Luke 6:32
u brought out the best of me. a part I've never seen.
our love was made for movie screens.

SunShine 7:46 PM
stop talking to me.
or I'll call the police.

Luke 7:47 PM
just give me a second Dylann.

Luke 8:01 PM
Dylann?

Luke 8:45 PM
pls answer me bb.
I need u.

Luke 12:46 AM
I'm coming to see u.

Luke 3:23 AM
You are my everything <3
you are my sunshine <3
answer my prayers and be okay.u matter to me. so much Dylann just b ok.

SunShine 11:41 AM
Dylann isn't okay.

my eyes widened. this wasn't my girlfriend, this wasn't her. I could imagine her eyes close and her fall off the cliff of life and fall into a deep pit of sadness. I broke her.

I broke her.

I broke her. I did this. I need to see her.

>> 3 H O U R S L A T E R <<

her eyes were closed, her body pale. she wore a pale blue hospital gown. her eyes purple with sleep, and her hand was cold. heart rate was slow, the bags of blood are dangling from the hooks of iron. I did this to her. I held her hand.

"Dylann. I love you so so so so much. come back. I never meant to. just open those pretty eyes of yours and smile and tell me I'm yours. tell me about your childhood stories. tell you need me to help you. just open those blue eyes of yours and whisper my name and I will be here for you." I was crouched beside her bed, holding her hand. her finger twitched. an eye slowly opened.

"l-l-l-Luke." her voice spilled. her eyes were grey-blue. her voice was cracking with tears. everything about her made me cry.

"I'm right here." I said.

"s-st-s-stay."