anxiety

C17: Sucks Being Sick

>> T H R E E M O N T H S L A T E R <<

>>Dylann
Luke went home after a few weeks of me being home and okay. we became closer. a lot closer, I must say. he really cared for me when I couldn't exactly do anything with weapons. and I hated it, just because I did something to hurt (well, tried to kill myself) myself doesn't mean I'll do it again. I was just so anxious and depressed I couldn't take it because I trusted Luke. but, as soon as he left, I became sick as a dog.

I usually puked after I woke up, after a few hours from eating, then usually in the middle of dinner. no, I was not pregnant. I checked and oh hell no. I just had the stomach bug that's all. I would also wake up from my naps or slumber to vomit. luke would call to see if I was okay, and I was. he had visited me two-three times over the past three months.

since I took online school, I had just stayed home. I would go out to lunch with my sisters or dinner with my family, and, if I had woken up early enough, go see Ms. Jodi. I would hang around my dads work office while he worked and I just organized papers.

Luke would Skype me every other day, and see if I was doing okay. I gave him a run down since we last Skyped, then we talked about meeting up somewhere. IF he or I was in the neighborhood. if not, we'd make up a schedule to meet in California, or Arizona, or Utah. in California we would hang out in his hotel room, go to the pool or go to the beach. which was mostly going to the beach to mess around. other places we walked around and explored without the boys.

Luke would Skype me and we'd talk for four hours then go to bed (which was me, mostly). staying up to skype was one thing, but skyline in the middle of the day is another.

I was wrapped up in my Sylvester crochet blanket, and had a bowl of dry Lucky Charms in my lap. How To Train Your Dragon: Race To The Edge was playing while I was curled up. I texted Luke while watching the awesome show.

(text form will be different for both of them)

Dylann 11:15 AM
how's China? or Japan? or wherever you are?

Penguin 11:18 AM
IM IN MUNICH, THIUGHT I TOLD U!
and awesome :) fans here are great :)

Dylann 11:19
awesome :) my grandma is up there right now :)
(tRUEST THING ON EARTH MY GRANDMA GOES TO GERMANY TO SEE HER SISTER)

Penguin 11:21
it is so pretty :) you'll love it here :)
and really?

Dylann 11:24
reeeaaaallllyyyy? :3 I'm up for what the plan is :3

Penguin 11:25
u .
come .
to .
ME . ;)

Dylann 11:26
how
about
NO ;)

Penguin 11:28
breadstick 🍞

Dylann 11:28
buttwipe 🍑🇳🇿

Penguin 11:34
the Australian flag?

Dylann 11:36
thERES NO WIPEY EMPJI SHUT UP!

Penguin 11:36
soy cute :3💘

Dylann 11:38
it's gonna be cute with my foot up ur butt
👣🍑

Penguin 11:43
u hurtful swine
💥🐷🐽

Dylann 11:44
u beautiful giant :)
🆙🆙😘😘

penguin 11:54
...how do I respond ?!
oh, "nerdy short girl 👓🔬🔽🚺"

Dylann 11:56
that works 💁🏼

Penguin 11:56
nerdy short girl 👓🔬🔽🚺

Penguin 11:57
that I love vvvvvv much. 💕💕

Dylann 11:59
oh rly?
giant that I love vvvvvvvvvvvvvv VERY much ! 💕💕💕💕💕
I win :)

Penguin 12:04
u do realize that we both win?

Dylann 12:05
how!? I did a lot of very's !
so i win :))

Penguin 12:06
I offered u a ticket to Munich .
I called u nerdy and short.
I came and visited u.
AUSTRALIA made u come to me.
and so on :)
oh- and Twitter PM's

Dylann 12:10
I hate you :)

penguin 12:12
I love you, too, baby 💕💕

I put my phone down and payed attention for the last 3 minutes of my show. I put some Lucky Charms in my mouth and just sat there. I blanked out for an hour, and woke up to my dad walking in and saying hello.

I mumbled a quiet hello, the. trudged to my room so I could sleep peacefully without a remote digging into my back. i pulled my laptop into my lap an skyped Luke, his face popped up on the screen.

"Hey, hurtfulful swine." he said smiling.

"hi, beautiful giant." I said as I shifted my elbows.

"what are you doing?" he said. I propped myself up with my stuffed animals, then looked at him.

"sleeping, but I wanted to hear your voice." I said in a small voice.

"aw can't you be any cuter?" he whispered.

"yeah." I said with a tiny yawn.

"STAP! STAP! OK JEEZ, YOU WIN." Luke said covering his ears and eyes.

"white girl." I chirped as I stretched.

"short girl." he mumbled into his hand.

"s'cuse me, sir. but what did you call me?"

"short..." he mumbled once more, but with pain. like he was shot with an arrow.

"ooh, short. okay." I chirped again, but with slight sass. (sass all the way honey)

"I have class and you have sass. we are polar opposites." Luke exclaimed with enthusiasm.

"oh, sweetie, no, baby..." I said in a southern accent.

"stop right dere missy." Luke said in a gay (I mean gay) tone.

"well, looks like Ashton rubbed up on you." I said looking at my nails.

"hey!" I heard a hearty voice screech from the background.

"sorry!" I claimed as I typed something up on the screen.

dyl.pickle // im not sorry .

lukerhemmo // figured at that.

dyl.pickle // boyfriend of the year award goes toooooo....

lukerhemmo // MEEEEE!!!!

dyl.pickle // NIALL HORANNNNN!

lukerhemmo // wtf Dylann.

dyl.pickle // I love you but he hugged me before you cradled me in your arms after I fell off the trampoline :) and was pushed into a foam pit :)))

lukerhemmo // ur a buttface

dyl.pickle // ur a breadstick , k ?

lukerhemmo // ur a monkey

dyl.pickle // ur a giraffe

lukerhemmo // ur a chinchilla

dyl.pickle // ape

lukerhemmo // otter

dyl.pickle // rhino

lukerhemmo // kitty

dyl.pickle // Saint Bernard :)

lukerhemmo // ur giving me all the ugly animals :,(

dyl.pickle // ur diving me all the cute ones ! :,)

lukerhemmo // I suck at fights .

dyl.pickld // yes. yes u do sweetie :)