Not in My Plans

Part 24

Ella’s POV 

This was the last week of filming the new Big Time Rush season. It’s nice to see Logan at work even though we don’t talk much.

I was making my way to the editing department. I opened Kendall’s dressing room to say hi and I was shocked at what I saw. In there was Logan kissing a girl so I just slammed the door and continued to where I was headed.

-“Ella wait…”I could hear Logan going after me “I can explain!” and he grabbed my hand.

-“Listen I think you made it clear enough for me to understand that you don’t have any feelings left for me so just let me go, I’m running late.” I said and he released my hand.

As the day went by I just couldn’t stop thinking about him. As we get closer something always has to mess it up. I’m done; I don’t want to get hurt again so I’ll try to stay friends with him. 

-“Hey Ella can you please go get Logan from his dressing room, we need him at hair and makeup for the next scene” Scott interrupted my train of thought.

-“S-Sure!”  I got up from my seat and made my way to his dressing room

I knocked on the door and a few seconds later the door opened. The lights inside were dimmed and Logan had his head down.

-“Ummm.. Logan… they need you in hair and makeup” he looked up at the sound of my voice. His eyes were red and puffy. Wait… was he crying? No… he couldn’t be…

-“Ella…” I looked into his eyes “Can we please talk?” I found myself at a loss of words and just nodded my head and he lead me to the couch inside the dressing room.  “Please hear me out. I Know have a knack for fucking up and I’m sorry; I really am. The girl in Kendall's dressing room was one of our  fan  and she was the one that kissed me not the other way aound. Last week when you came over I was shocked and I didn’t even let you say a word, and I regret the words that came out of my mouth.” By now he was kneeled before me grabbing my knees. “Ella I don’t wanna lose you and I want to be a part of our baby’s life, please!” a single tear escaped his eyes and a wiped it away with my thumb. You could see the sincerity and pain in his eyes.

-“Oh Logan…!” I sighed “I won’t keep you away from the baby; I mean I would love for the father to be in his or her life, but…” I placed my hands in my stomach “I don’t know about you and me! Every time something seems to breaks us apart” I kissed his cheek and made my way out of the room.

Half hour later I was headed to the set and Scott came out and said.

-“Well that’s a wrap for today!”

-“Wait I thought we had Logan’s scene next?”

-“Well he wasn’t feeling quite well so he went home”

-“Oh…”

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This few days have been horrible. My food won’t agree with me at all and I’ve been in and out of the doctor’s office. On the up side today was the day was the day I get to know the sex of the baby. This is so exciting. I haven’t seen Logan in a while so I decided to call him, maybe ask him to go with me.

-“hello?” Wow he picked up after two rings. “Hey Logie are you busy?” Damn why did I call him that? “Ok good, you’re not doing anything”. Ok here I go, just breathe and ask him! “you said you wanted to be a part of the baby’s life right? So… would you like to come to my appointment with me toda-” He didn’t even let me finish when he was already saying yes. 

“Ok see you soon…”