*Wynter's Pov!*
I know the doctor told me to wait seven days before going swimming. But after six days of having to stare at the ocean outside my window. I couldn't take it anymore. So whenever it was night time, I shut my laptop and jumped into a bathing suit. I put my hair up as I ran down the stairs. It only took me three minutes of getting dressed and some snacks to already be out and running towards the water.
I threw my snacks in the sand and ran faster. My feet hit the water and soon so did the rest of my body. The water was surprisingly warm tonight. I just went deeper, letting it all consume me. My head falls back, staring at the sky above me. It was pitch black, but the stars were still showing. I stared at each individual one, moving farther through the water. I couldn't help but smile, I forgot how good this feels.
My body flew under, looking at pure darkness. I swam through it. The silence calmed me as I rose to the surface. Time always moved so slow when I was out here. But I was okay with it, I liked knowing I had time to float. But as my eyes wandered, staring at the shore. I noticed someone there, standing silently. I blinked twice, Theo? No what..wait a second.
I stood up slowly, squinting, getting a good look. But once I saw who it was, I automatically looked away. "I knew you'd be here." Artemis said softly. I'm glad the water was separating us because if it wasn't I would have punched him. "Why are you here?" I asked, glaring. "I just wanted to swim-"
"Then go somewhere else and do that, not here." I interrupted, turning away from him. "Are you seriously still mad about that?" He asked, making me even more pissed off. "Still?" I turned around as his legs found the water, getting closer. "You let your brother say that, and you didn't even deny it!" I yelled. But he just rolled his eyes. "He was just being a big brother, he doesn't want me to have anything serious and you weren't so it doesn't matter-."
"It mattered to me, and you say I'm nothing serious but you were good at acting that way." I said, stepping closer. "You don't do the things we did If it meant nothing, you even knew about Theo. What the hell!" I yelled angrily. "Sorry for leading you on I guess." He laughed. "So what, you're just going to act like this never happened?" I asked as he scoffs. "Yeah pretty much, I've never had anything serious because truthfully it's not worth it." He said, stepping closer. His hand went to my cheek.
"So why don't we just cut the bull shit and have fun." He said leaning towards me. I smacked his hand away, backing up as he glared at me. "You're lying, I know you're not like that. I saw your face when your brother showed up, you seemed scared. So are you just saying this because of him? Because that's how he raised you because your parents were never around?" I said as his eyes widened, but quickly changed to a glare.
"Stop talking, you don't know anything about me." I stepped closer. "I know a lot actually, and until you can admit that you can go fuck yourself. Because I sure as hell won't let you fuck me." I said, he stepped back. "You act like you're so perfect and that you do no wrong, I hate that about you. I hate how you treated me. You treated me like you gave and shit and now you're saying you never did. That I meant nothing, I mean what kind of person does that to someone!"
For a split second, his eyes showed guilt. His wall was cracking, waiting to break apart. But he kept it firm, keeping whatever he wasn't telling me inside. "Just talk to me, please." I begged but he just turned away, walking out of the water. I watched him closely as his feet stepped out and onto the sand. I watched him take his towel, I just watched.
He stopped walking, standing there. It was so cold now, everything was falling apart and I couldn't do anything about it. "I'm not allowed to love you." He said firmly, his eyes meeting mine with pure sadness. I was breaking, my wall cracked and fell apart at that moment. "Why?" I whispered. "Because I can't!" He yelled, on the verge of tears. I paced out of the water, meeting him face to face.
His eyes showed me everything. He was in pain and I was angry at myself for not knowing why. The wind fell between us, causing us both to shiver. My eyes met his, staring, waiting for something that meant I could be with him. "Why Artemis?" I asked softly. But he just sighed, our hands touched delicately. I watched his hands touch mine. They were warm compared to outside, I wanted to shut my eyes and enjoy this but I kept my eyes glued to what was right in front of me.
"Did I do something?" I asked as he shook his head immediately. "I'm just." He said, his eyes meeting mine. I just stared at him back, waiting for an answer, waiting for anything. My eyes started to go back and forth from his eyes to his lips, waiting for them to open and say something.
But his breath became heavy, fanning against my face. He stepped closer, letting go of my hand and leading it up to my face. He cupped my cheek, staring at my lips. I know I should have pushed away and not let him do this. But once his lips were on mine. I couldn't fucking stop it. The kiss was fast, because neither of us wanted to have time to realize what was happening. His hand went to my waist pulling me closer.
I sighed heavily, he pulled me even further to him. "fuck." He mumbled, his hand going to my hair while the other stayed on my waist. My hands went to his face, deepening the kiss as he mumbled random words under his breath. We finally parted, our foreheads connecting. "I fucking love you." Artemis breathed out as I found myself smiling. "Then why can't we be serious?" I questioned, making the sadness come back. I kissed him quickly, making him smile.
"I never have Wyn, everyone in my life is all about doing things and leaving and I don't know any different." He said honestly. I just sighed, staring back at him. "Do you not want this?" I asked as he quickly brought me into his arms. Once I smell his cologne, I just melt into this feeling. "Of course I do but I don't know why. I mean with every other girl they really don't mean anything but I can't get you out of my fucking head."
I let go slowly, keeping my arms lightly wrapped around him. "Let's try this then, If it's not what you want then we can stop." I say as he brings me back into him. "I missed this, and you. When I saw you and Jason together I hated it Wyn, I fucking hated it." He said angrily, tightening his hold on me.
"He is a nice guy, but..he isn't you." I say, and he kisses me soundly. "Good." He breathes. I smile as he looks down. "But I can't hurt you, not after everything you've been through. You need to understand that."
"I don't understand Artemis, I don't." I say as he slowly lets go. I take his hand, stopping him from leaving as tears fill my eyes. "I want this Artemis, I don't care for how long, I just want you." I say softly, tears falling from my eyes. He lets go of my hand, walking away. "I can't hurt you, and I won't Wyn." He says, walking away.
I just stare at him, until his shadow disappears out of my sight. Once I know he is gone, I let the tears fall and fall and fall until there isn't any more left. I can't believe how easy I lost you, and how much losing you fucking hurts.
It just hurts.
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