I wish you loved me in the ways I did.
I didn't want someone else, not him, not her.
You
So why couldn't that happen? Why couldn't you love me?
Was I really that bad?
Was it that easy to let go of what we had?
I don't know..and that's the problem.
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*Wynter's Pov!*
"What do you wanna get?" Jason asked, my eyes glancing over to his. "It's pretty basic." I admit, he then leans forward. Green clashing with blue, my eyes tried to look away. But I didn't want to. I needed to forget, blue eyes aren't what I want. So I stayed on his, as he smiled. "You staring?" He said with a grin. "It's Vanilla, chocolate syrup, rainbow sprinkles, with Oreo pieces." I said, ignoring his remarks and focusing on the shop around me.
He told the cashier our order as I looked around. Colors splashed everywhere you looked, no blank spots. The shop was a basic canvas for a happy mind. I honestly envy the person who came up with this design. Any kid would love this place. "I'll have the same as her, thank you." He said, making my eyes go to his again. He turned to me, smiling. "I want to try it." He said genuinely.
I just rolled my eyes, going to sit down as we waited for our food. I just found myself staring again. This time at the ceiling, looking at all these different colors in amazement. Whoever did this, must have taken hours on it. "Beautiful right." He said as I met his gaze, the gaze that stayed on me. Jason, I don't think you're talking about the ceilings, are you? I wanted to give him a smug look, but I kept that too myself.
It was cold, freezing even as I started to shiver. This made it easier to hide my expression, but not the fact that I was shivering so obviously. Jason then slid over to me in the booth, putting his sweater beside me. I stared at it, green and blue. I love those colors. I took it slowly, slipping it onto my body as Jason watched. I felt so natural with him, I wasn't scared, or nervous. I just felt calm.
We've known one another for years, so being here like this. It was just easy. "It looks better on you." He said, making me smile under the sweater as I finished putting it on. Once it went over my head and onto me fully, his eyes still stayed on mine. So I stared back, neither of us broke eye contact. Personally, I didn't want to. He had pretty eyes, and I wanted something serious. Since I wasn't anything serious with Artemis. I just can't believe I thought I was.
It all felt real, but once his family was in the picture. I wasn't worth his time, I was his secret, that's all I was. I don't want a secret, I want something that is known about. I guess that wasn't going to be with him. But I ignored that fact, keeping my eyes taped to Jason's. It wasn't awkward, it was just subtle staring. Nothing crazy, but once the waiter walked up to us, the barrier was put back up.
She handed us the food, I quietly thanked her but she just gave me a dirty look. I was confused, but after the way she just looked at Jason, I knew why.
I was competition.
I wanted to laugh, but it didn't matter. She wasn't worth the energy. "Is she your girlfriend?" She asked him, fuck this girl is bold. "That's none of your business." He said, making me smile. He smiled back, meeting her eyes with a no-one-wants-you look. "Thanks, but we are all good here." He said, giving me a quick glance before starting to eat the ice cream. Suddenly, his eyes lit up once he tasted it, staring back at me.
