Found You - Woosan

Chapter 17

"You should have never been born. All you are is a bad reminder of my past... I should have gotten rid of you when I still could. You are the reason why I died."

Fire. The fire spread throughout the house as he turned to the woman who was now covered in blood. It was so hard to breathe, smoke filled the air as he listened to his mother's screams of pain. He quickly covered his mouth so he wouldn't inhale the thick smoke.

"You know kiddo sometimes it's good to embrace that you're not normal! You're just like me kid, a deranged sicko that can barely control his bloodlust."

The air became cold, he uncovered his mouth as he looked around the new room he was in. The moonlight shined through the windows of the house, the walls and floor covered in blood. He looked at the bloodied knife that was in his hand and then at his father's dead body.

"You really are pitiful Wooyoung."

Wooyoung froze as he heard the new voice appear, tears filled his eyes as he turned his head to look at the male that towered above him.

No. Please.

"How stupid could you be? Falling in love with me and thinking you could be happy? Please, don't make me laugh at your idiocy!"

Shut up. San would never say that... would he?

There were more people now, all people that Wooyoung loved. His mother, His father, Seonghwa, Hongjoong, Yeosang, Jongho, San... all laughing and mocking him. A sharp ringing sound could be heard, it was painful so painful. Wooyoung covered his ears all he wanted was to block the sounds out. Shut up. Shut up. Shut The Hell Up!

Wooyoung gasped as he opened his tear-filled eyes, he sat up and looked around his room. He let out a sigh of relief as he realized it was all just another nightmare. He laid back down and looked at the clock on his bedside table that read 4:03 a.m. Dammit, why did he listen to those two idiots? He knew that he would have a hard time falling asleep even with his sleeping pills and that without any Prazosin he would just have constant nightmares. (Prazosin is a drug that doctors usually prescribe to reduce high blood pressure but they also prescribe it to those who have PTSD nightmares as it is pretty affective for reducing them.)

He calmed himself down before getting up and heading to the bathroom. He flicked the light switch causing him to squint his eyes at the sudden brightness. Once his eyes adjusted to the light he headed toward the sink as he looked at his appearance. He felt like shit, he always did after waking up from a nightmare. He brushed his teeth and did his skincare before opening a small drawer. He pulled out a few pill bottles and set them down before closing the drawer.

He slightly struggled with the childproof cap before eventually opening it and shaking a pill out before doing the same with the other three bottles and then putting them all back in the drawer. He took the pills one by one, he always hated taking medication but without them, things would be worse.

Wooyoung was always wearing a happy face, pretending like everything was fine when everything was not in fact fine. Every single day was just suffering, all he wanted to do was end it so that he could finally be happy. Every day he felt sick and disappointed with himself, he always wondered why he wasn't normal like everyone else.

He never asked to be born to a neglectful mother or insane father. He blamed himself for his mother's death even though he had nothing to do with it. He also blamed himself for his father's death, but it was because he did have something to do with it. He remembered that day all too clearly, the day he stabbed and murdered his father. Yet he didn't feel any regret, his father was a sick bastard who took advantage of women just to end up murdering them. Unlike his father, Wooyoung didn't like harming the innocent, but complete assholes like his father? Now that was a different story.

His thoughts continued to race before he heard a knock on his door which caused him to snap out of his thoughts. He stepped out of the bathroom making sure to turn off the light behind him as he walked over to his bedroom door. He opened it to reveal a tall male with yellow and red hair. "Wooyoung time to get ready boss called for us." The taller male as he leaned against the door frame.

"Are you kidding why is he calling for us so early?" Wooyoung responded looking at the clock which now read 6:29. Wooyoung was slightly irritated which caused the taller to laugh. "You act as if you were busy sleeping when we all know damn well you weren't. Speaking of not sleeping why didn't you listen to mine or Yunho's suggestion?" the taller said crossing his arms and raising an eyebrow at the younger.

"Trust me Mingi I tried but it just... didn't work out," Wooyoung said slightly ashamed as he refused to maintain eye contact. Mingi's expression softened as he awkwardly patted the younger on his head. "It's alright, what matters is that you at least tried?" Mingi said trying to sound comforting.

"You suck at comforting," Yunho said from the living room. Mingi let out an offended gasp as he turned around to face Yunho. "I'm trying my best you asshole!" Mingi said before getting off the door frame and heading toward the living room. Wooyoung chuckled before closing his door in order to get ready.

After twenty minutes Wooyoung finished getting ready and was wearing black cargo pants and a black shirt that was tucked into them. He put his black and blonde hair in a small ponytail while leaving two strands in the front loose.

When he finished getting ready he walked out of his room to see Yunho and Mingi bickering about something in the living room. When he walked out the two males looked at Wooyoung before yelling in unison, "Who is better at comforting people?" Wooyoung stood there blinking a little. "You guys are still on this topic?" Wooyoung said in disbelief.

"Of course we are. So who is it?" Yunho said looking determined. Wooyoung laughed softly as he looked at the two males who were glaring at each other. He then walked over to the front door and put on his shoes before standing up. "Yunho's better. Now please stop with the stupid couple arguments. It reminds me of just how single I really am." Wooyoung said before walking out of their apartment.

"Are you kidding!" Mingi said in disbelief. Yunho on the other hand quickly followed Wooyoung's lead as he put on his shoes. Before leaving the apartment he turned around and stuck his tongue out. Mingi was left there shocked before he snapped out of it rushing to put his shoes on. "Wait! Don't leave without me!"