How do you move on from the betrayal
Of falling in love
With someone who didn't exist?
How do you become whole again
After falling in love with an image,
Instead of the person?
How do you heal
From something you never deserved
To experience?
How do you let go of the baggage
So you can fall again
For the right person?
How do you not hold triggers of the past
Against the actions of the present?
How do you tape the pieces of your heart
Back together
After something like that?
How do you even know where to start?
How do you know what piece to pick up first?
How do you process trauma
When poetry stops working?
How do you learn to love again
When he destroyed you?
How do you ever fall again
When the ghost of him
Makes you question everything?
How do you ever trust again
When the lies he whispered
Linger still?
How do you ever give your heart away again
When there's nothing left to give?
How do you ever move on
From the boy who promised to love you,
But wouldn't tell you that he lied?
How do you ever stop hurting
When the boy you thought meant "forever"
Turned out to mean "just for now"?
How do you even begin to process
That kind of trauma?
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Castles in the Sky
PoetryThis poetry and short prose collection is for the shadow girls: the girls who feel like a husk of their former selves; who dream of better days and brighter skies; who wonder if their shadows will ever truly fade with time. Content Warnings: Anxiety...
