Castles in the Sky

˙⋆ Something New (explicit) ⋆˙

A fluttering butterfly in my stomach;

A fleeting kiss in a dream;

A gentle face in my mind;

A familiar feeling sweeping over me.

My instincts say to run,

To hide,

To panic,

To leave before I fuck this up.

The memory of a kiss from a dream

Lingers like a tattoo in my mind.

I know what this is,

But that doesn't make it any less terrifying,

Any less debilitating,

Any less panic inducing.

Except I'm not terrified.

I'm not debilitated.

I'm not panicking.

"I mean, maybe it's a good thing,"

She said over text.

"The fact that you have a crush

Shows that you've healed a lot."

I typed back that I hadn't considered that part.

All I'd seen was something new,

Something I didn't know I was still capable of,

Something that caught me while vulnerable.

But maybe this is the start of something new,

Of learning how to feel again

For someone who isn't Him.