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EYAH'S POV
It's been a month since Zel and I became close. Like very very very close. Nagtataka man ang iba naming kasama pero wala man kahit isa ang nagtanong sa kanila.
All we know is that we are more than friends yet we don't have a label.
We did our best to hide the romantic relationship that we have from our friends because Zel is not ready to come out. Nag explain din siya sa akin kung bakit hindi na muna daw pwedeng sabihin. May mga bagay na kailangan muna daw siyang ayusin para sa sarili niya. Hindi ko na tinanong yung tungkol doon pero sinabi niya na mas nakakapabuti daw iyon sa sarili niya.
All that matter to me is her.
Her love towards me.
And my love towards her.
Pero hindi din namin maiwasan ang mga tanong na nagmumula sa mga pinsan niya. Lalong lalo na sa kapatid niya, kay Zei.
Ang dami niyang tinatanong tungkol sa amin dahil sa mga action daw na ginagawa namin pero we manage to convince them that we're just friends.
I am currently at the rooftop waiting for Zel. Sinabi niya kasi na may kailangan daw akong malaman. Kinakabahan tuloy ako lalo na nitong mga nakaraang araw Zel has been showing me signs that something's bothering her mentally. Sinubukan kong magtanong tungkol doon pero iniiba niya ang topic.
I welcomed Zel with a hug but she doesn't seem to be herself today. Her face is back to expressionless woman that I always know. It pinched my heart seeing her this way but I still want to believe that this is just a normal in every relationship.
"Are you okay? You don't look to well. I'm worried." I tried to break the silence as I sat beside her.
"Ey." She called me in her deep cold voice. Marinig ulit ang ganitong boses niya parang hindi siya ang nakasama ko nung dinner last monday.
"Y-Yeah?" Mahinang sabi ko pero sigurado akong maririnig niya. Mas lalo akong nakaramdam ng kaba dahil sa itsura niya at ayaw ko ng ituloy ang usapan na meron kami ngayon.
"Let's stop this."
My body suddenly felt numb. My mind stopped working for a moment. Para din akong naestatwa sa kinauupuan ko habang patuloy na nag eecho sa utak ko ang mga sinabi niya. I just can't seem to understand what she mean by it....or maybe I'm forcing myself not to understand because I can't afford to lose her.
"W-What? W-Why?"
"I'm just bored. I don't want you anymore."
"S-Stop joking, Zel. Hindi ikaw si Zei para magbiro ng ganito. This is not f-funny." My voice cracked
"I'm serious. Let's stop seeing each other."
Agad ko naman hinawakan ang shoulder niya ng akmang aalis na siya.
"Look me in the eye at sabihin mo ulit sa akin iyon." Zel did turn her gaze on me. That unreadable and cold eyes. I hate that!
"Let's stop seeing each other."
Just like that, I let go of her. Naglakad siya paalis at naiwan akong tulala dito. I was there looking at the back of the woman who made me feel like my world has been turning in my hands but then in a snap it all hit me with a huge tidal wave of pain.
Now I know that I really have a heart because I can felt it breaking. This is so stupid. I should go and ran after her but I just let her vanish from my sight. Hindi ko man nasabi sa kanya kung gaano ako nasaktan. But I still love her. It's not just the happy moments and the butterflies in my stomach that tells me that I love her, but it's also about the pain. This fucking thorns in my chest!
Where did go wrong? May nagawa ba akong mali? Bakit kailangan maging ganito? Aren't I supposed to be the one to call us off first? It was all my plan! Or was it really my plan? I admit I had a change of my heart when I kissed her on the carnival. I selfishly decided to make her mine and make her genuinely happy. But how am I supposed to do that when she doesn't want me anymore? How can I supposed to make her happy when she broke me like this? How can I supposed to fix myself now?
I'm such a fool.
A fool who fell in love.
I forgot she's a heartless devil.
"Eyah?" I felt a soft tap on my shoulder. I turned and saw Via wearing a pair of questionable eyes.
"V-Via."
"Why are you still here? It's already late."
Agad akong napalingon sa paligid at nakita kong madilim na nga. Hindi ko namalayan na inabot ako ng gabi dito sa rooftop.
"Why are crying? Who did this to you?!" Via rushed into me and cupped my cheeks. She wiped my tears using her thumb.
When did I start crying? Was I crying? Why am I so weak? It's just a fucking heartbreak. A painful and fucked up heartbreak.
Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko na yakapin si Via at isiniksik ang ulo ko sa mag leeg niya. I need someone to lean on.
"It hurts. Right here. In my chest. Hindi ko alam bakit pero ang sakit, Via. Anong gagawin ko? Paano ko pipigilan ang puso ko na hindi masaktan?"
"I know, Eyah. It's okay to be weak sometimes. It's okay to cry. I'm here, you can lean on me."
"I hate the fact that I loved her so much. So much that it resorted to this strong affliction. Bakit ang sakit magmahal?"
"Love and pain goes away hand in hand, Eyah. That's life. Light won't exist without darkness. And the darkness won't exist without light. Just like love, love won't exist without pain. And pain won't exist without love."
"Loving someone is fucking torture!"
"No, Eyah. Hindi naman ibig sabihin na nasaktan ka kailangan mo ng isipin iyon. Baka hindi lang ito ang tamang panahon para sa inyong dalawa."
"It's suffocating me, Via."
"That pain will pass too. Isang araw marerealize mo nalang na wala na ang sakit. Na masaya kana ulit."
"Thank you, Via. I'm sorry for crying out to you like this."
"Don't be sorry. I'll always stand by you."
Love and pain.
Such a fucking wordplay!
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