𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐊𝐈𝐀𝐑𝐀

07

❝'Cause even underneath the waves
I'll be holding on to you... ❞

—— ༻𐬽✧𐬽༺ ——

TW: mentions of an eating disorder
and bullying

Time skip to Tuesday 24th October, 2017

KIARA
The nerves were really starting to hit me now. This time tomorrow, I would most likely be in Taylor Swift's living room, listening to her new album. I would be in the same room as her. I would get to meet her. I would get to meet the woman that has saved me in a thousand different ways.

The idea of that still hadn't sunk in yet. Part of me still believes that I will soon wake up and find out that none of this was real to begin with. I also managed to fully convince Lucas a week ago that it wasn't his fault that Gracie discovered I would probably be meeting Taylor. He was now back to his bright and cheerful personality and was no longer acting distant. It took a while to get him to believe me when I said I wasn't angry, but everything is okay between us now.

School was conveniently out for two weeks now as we usually have two weeks off for halloween. I was currently in my bedroom, deciding on what I should wear for the secret session tomorrow. It wasn't that difficult to decide as I didn't really have a wide range of Taylor's merchandise. So as a result, I chose my 'Speak Now' hoodie, some beige cargo trousers and my black and white converse. I also settled on the idea of writing a thirteen on my hand tomorrow.

As soon as I had everything that I needed, I placed it on the stool that was tucked under my desk so that I wouldn't have to get everything out in the morning. Out of nowhere, a wave of nausea suddenly took over, causing me to stumble backwards slightly. My vision blurred for a few seconds, making me scrunch my eyes shut. After a moment of trying to keep my breathing steady, I slowly opened my eyes to see how my vision had gone back to normal.

I sighed in frustration and balled my fists up, my nails digging into my palms. That keeps happening to me. Whenever I move too quickly, my head starts to feel really heavy and then it's like i'm going to faint. I haven't fainted yet, but I know it's going to happen soon because I'm not eating nearly enough. But I can't just throw away all my progress because I feel a little sick. It's all going to be worth it if i'm able to stop Gracie from saying how fat I am.

However, I still had to convince Louis and Julie that I was eating enough. So, I made my way downstairs for breakfast before either of them could get suspicious.

I haven't heard from Taylor in around a week. I'm guessing that she has been busy getting ready for the secret session as well as the release of 'Reputation.' For the past few weeks, Taylor had been sending me small text messages asking how I was, which I loved. The fact that after all these texts, I would actually be able to talk to her face to face tomorrow. I can finally tell her in person how much she means to me.