The Lonely Hearts Club

Chapter 62 Happiness Part 2 (Hades)

Warning: sexual content
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I like October, I like the fall season.

It's nice.

You know what's not nice?

Joey's workout regimen. Thank God I've finished what I needed to do and it's only Nicks who still has shit to go.

"One last set and you're done." Joey snaps, before disappearing. I swear he's always disappearing.

I spot Nicks as he bench presses, face red as he over-exerts himself.

"I can lower the weight for you," I say.

"Fuck off." He spits, his arms collapse and I grab the bar.

"Should have lowered the weight for him," Angelo says.

"How am I so much weaker than you?" He huffs.

"It's in your innate human nature." I tease and he rolls his eyes.

"Are you coming to the Halloween party next week, Hades?" Angelo asks.

"I don't know."

"Savvy already thinks Bree is going." Nicks drags himself into a seated position.

I don't want to go...but if she does then I guess I'll put up with it.

"It might be the right time to confess as well." Nicks nods.

"Confess?" I laugh. "What the fuck are you talking about?"

"You tell Bree you're not just a pretty security guard."

Not this again.

Please.

"I don't think a Halloween party is the right time," Angelo says gently.

"I think it is." He says.

"It's not," I say. "But I'm going to tell her soon."

I will.

A few days later
I still haven't told her.

I can't.

Bree's my angel.

She saved my life.

She's brought happiness into my day to day and when I'm around her I don't feel lonely.
I know everybody fucking says it, but it's true, there's a difference between being alone and being lonely.

You can be perfectly content and happy in your own company, the same way you can be empty constantly surrounded by people.

Joey has Lana. Nicks has Savvy, even if their relationship is toxic. Angelo and Coco have a friendship bond that goes deeper than everyone else's.

I was the friend that everyone could talk to, that everyone needed every once in a while. But you know, sometimes it's nice to feel needed all the time.

I realized something this morning and I feel so fucking ashamed for thinking about it. I think part of the reason why I'm not overly eager to find Rowan is because if he's dead, Bree won't need me anymore.

What if she decides she's safe and abandons me? I can't deal with that. Yeah I know that's selfish and I'm a prick for saying it, but it's how I feel.

Besides, while ever she's with me or in the apartment complex—fuck even with Lana, Coco, or Savvy, she's safe.

He'll never get her.

No one is ever gonna understand my thought process but I don't give a fuck.

Being around her is my happiness. I don't need anything else in this world now. All I want to do is spend my night being around her.