Letter Supply | Shaylor

Twenty Five - Let You Go

"One thing."

Sammy nodded.

"Can we keep this a secret? I can't have anybody know, at least until the trip is over. Let me have two weeks or so to myself before I can be with you."

"Anything you want as long as I know you like me too and we don't need any labels, I know we like each other it's fine. Mentally, you're my boyfriend even though we aren't with terms right now."

"Mhmm. So humble, caring, understanding, as much as the letters. I like you so much." I put both arms over his shoulders and snuggled up with him kissing down his neck. I would not mind spending time with him in this cabana as long as nobody's watching. But right now I have to go.

"Bye Sam." I kissed his lips one more delicate time before leaving.

"Let's go my two little hard heads." I pull both of their arms before leaving. We walk out the door without Cameron and Taylor saying bye to everyone. It's like I'm the mom calling out her two children for doing something wrong.

"Threesome? Ooh." Cameron smirked.

"I say we bottom Shawn!" Taylor raised his air as the two fist pumped. Roll my eyes.

I was going to get Aaliyah but she wanted to spend the night there. Okay I don't think the nanny does night shifts but whatever they allowed her to sleep over.

Taylor started the ignition, "Chill Shawn." Cameron chucked. "Hush." I spoke. "Why so mad muffin?" Cameron put both of his hands on the passenger seat and I swatted them away. "You and Taylor. Mad at you for those stupid texts." Taylor laughed, "Haha he's mad at y-" I rolled my eyes, "You too Taylor! Gilinsky is so dead to me. Why is he going to vacation with us. HENCE VACATION. I don't want him!"

He put his car back to park, "So this is what its actually about? You don't want to share me?-"

"Look Taylor, that is definately not the case, I don't have to share you, why are you treating yourself like a guacamole dip to pass around? Because, you're just a guy okay. And you're the type of guy who does not understand what I am going through. Can't you see I don't want him to go because he teases me, he hurts me, makes me feel unwanted. Who knows what he'll do when he has me alone!" I was on the verge of tears, Cameron laid a hand on my shoulder and gently rubbed it. I could see he was glaring at Taylor while all Taylor could do was have a guilty expression. "Sorry."

He started to drive in the silence, Cameron's head bulked to the passenger seat head rest so he knew to take a sit back down and buckle up.

"Home?" he asked quietly. "Yes."

While letting Taylor park,

I received four texts from Cameron,

As much as I really, really like you and want you to myself, I know that I can't. You confirmed it. Thank you for not leading me on and directly telling me how you feel. And here is my way of repaying you...

Talk to him.

I know Taylor really likes you, I feel that I like you more but I am sure he puts a better display as your boyfriend. People only see me as your friend, and as your friend- your best friend- I am telling you that you need to hear him out, ask him why does he want Gilinky there? I am sure he will be reasonable. Let him know you're concerned for yourself, your safety. If he doesn't care to keep you secure he's not worth it. Let him know how you feel. And when things go well between you two, just tell me thank you.

I love you okay. Love you enough to let you go. I will always love you so much.

Once the car parked, while Taylor was still inside I waited by the door for Cameron to come out. When he went out of the left side door (he was on the left side because it was easier to see Shawn in the passenger seat, but comforting Shawn earlier, he was in the right) I ran into him and nearly knocked him over like Internet friends meeting for the first time. We waddled to the door and I swayed our bodies back and forth. "I love you Cam."

"Phew. Glad to know but I'm suffocating and you need to open the door." He tried to let go but I wouldn't budge. My arms were still over his and from this sight I saw Taylor frowning uncomfortably as he kept looking back at his phone and my house door. I felt hands go down into my back pocket as Cameron grabbed it and attempted to open the door.

I squeezed him one last time because I noticed Cameron wasn't holding on anymore. "What?" I pouted. "I love you but you read my texts. Go." he signaled his hands to shoo me off.

When I went back outside Taylor was gone. His car was nowhere to be found.

"Too late." I sighed and rubbed my eyes. "Shawn sit down." I sat on the couch closest to the door and Cameron gave me a thin blanket. "I'm going to make nachos or something."

Sigh. I lost Cameron, well I know he's still my best friend, if Sammy finds out what I'm doing around with Taylor he might get Gilinsky to defend himself. Sammy and I aren't even together I just admit my feelings. The only person I should admit feelings to is Taylor.

-

It was darker than earlier. I swear when we came home the sky was pink but now it's like completely black out. I don't even remember sleeping pretty long.

"Cameron?" I called out. I went to the kitchen and I saw his messy nacho plate in the sink but he wasn't around.

By the doorstep his shoes were gone.

I wiped my face and yawned heading upstairs with the blanket over my shoulders.

When I got to my room the knob was being hardheaded. I couldn't get in. Before my knuckles could brush against the wood, the door slowly opened.

I was welcomed with twinkling lights, candles I guess but they were those electric battery ones, still cute, and a teddy bear wearing a shirt saying, well something I can't read because it's in sloppy cursive. Tie dye and heart shaped sunglasses. Oh chocolate too.

How bad can this get. "Cameron stop."

"No." the voice in the distance whispered. As I closed the door. A blind fold was captured over my eyes and I was being hugged from behind.

"Look this is cute but can I know who this is now. It's so cheesy."

- ☺️ -

Probably thought Taylor hmm? What if I said it was Sammy who did this. What you thinkin.

Also. I started a new book. Several chapters already. Well I finished a Matt x Shawn book too but I'm not ready to publish that. So I'm thinking about posting this 'MAGCon' one about the 9 guys and what not. SHOULD I DO IT SOON. UGMMM sure why not, I'll publish that one. I tell you guys personally like thanking you for votes and reading, you know who you guys are, so pretty much that's my only favor, if you read that book. Just go omg I really care about that one (even though I happen to say it to lots of my books)

ANYWHO cut to the chase please take a chance at my new book called
Who's The Daddy?
UGJMANS YEAH.

[ June 16 ]