Letter Supply | Shaylor

Twenty Nine - Good To Know

You can't be serious right now. The bell rings in two minutes and I swear Taylor hasn't come back yet. If anything I bet he thinks I will pick up his stuff for him and go chase after him.

I won't.

The bell rang.

"Damn it." I sighed and went to go grab Taylor's backpack and walk out the class.

I was pulled by the arm and turned to see it was Johnson, "Was it something I said?" I gave him a reassuring look telling him it will be okay and that it is not his fault. I pointed at the jacket and he immediately knew.

"Hey Shawn!" great another person holding me back from seeing Taylor. "I saw your bud walk into the restroom earlier and he's still in there." Gilinsky budged my shoulder and grabbing Johnson to walk away from me.

Mentally smirking because I can sense that Taylor is jealous. Why else would he walk away for after being so speechless. Irritated with the fact that he can not speak for himself and straight up tell me that he does not like this mark on my next. Too quick to judgements, I could of burned myself or got hit with a ball, maybe Gilinsky beat me up again.

Assumptions, but what happened was true.

In my case, I was not even awake for this to happen.

I saw Taylor look left and right before leaving a room. As i approached it, I realized it was a supply closet, not the restroom. He walked out with a snapback on backwards and his hands in his pockets, suspicious may I add.

Definitely following this boy's track. He walked to his car and just as he looked over his shoulder to back out I opened the door. "You know, its not safe to leave the door unlocked, people who want to kill you, like me, might get in." I was completely teasing but I think he took it far too serious. "Why do you want to kill me?" I sighed, "Maybe because you left and I had to claim all your baggage."

He drove off in silence. Does he even care about ditching. Clearly this is suspicious. I cannot just leave class to go where Taylor wants, top it off, I was unexcused late today!

We headed to some darkish corner, it lead to just road and pavement.

"I like to go here, and think. I found it that one day when you hung out with Cameron instead of me."

He went to sit on the floor as his legs swung down the cliff. I laid a hand on his shoulder and used him to adjust myself on the floor besides him.

"What are you thinking, Taylor?"

He scooted himself away from me. When I sat down our legs pressed but now this gap defines how distant he wants to be away from me and I feel terrible.

"I don't know what we are. We are about to go on a trip together and you're about to meet my friends that I practically spent the last few years with. I don't know how to define us. Oh, I take that back. I know my feelings... I don't know yours." He hopped off the cliff, it was a small seven foot drop that was not too much to handle. I stayed up because I am afraid that I will not know how to get back up.

"Shawn." he paced himself in circles below me. "You say you like me right? You tell me how I can be there for you more than anyone, aside from Cameron off course, yet, I see you and Sammy encounter so much more than we do. You seem to have more of that click we don't. I don't get what I do wrong that makes you so unsatisfied." His words practically explained my life. It is everything, I honestly know nothing about myself nor my feelings.

"I am looking for someone who understands me more than myself, you explained me perfectly." I plopped down off the cliff and embraced my arms around his neck.

Aw, his warmth is so delicate and I feel,.. at home in his arms more than anyone else.

"You like me right?"

"I was never too sure, if anything, I never know, but whenever I am with you, I swear you are the only person I like." He lifted my legs up and wrapped them around his body. It was those scenes in a moie at the beach where the couple would hug and spin on the beach, except, this time, we were not a couple and it was not a beach.

I am waiting for the right moment.

"So?" Taylor sighed putting me down and climbing back up.

"Yeah?" I shook my head, I knew I should not of hopped down because I knew I could not climb back up! I panted and just stared at the floor and everything surrounding me. Ugh.

"You good Shawn?" I laughed. "Hah, right. Perfect."

I managed to put my foot in one of the rocks and got up fine.

"You don't want to be labeled as anything yet do you?" Its true, I am not ready, especially after Sam and Cam. "I get it and I respect that, as long as you please give yourself to me." he pulled me back so I would lean on his car, with his hand on his my waist. "Just know that you're all mine."

It was an idea where I think I should kiss him but no I cannot have that happen either, not yet at least.

He smirked before moving back and getting into his car.

Eleven in the morning breeze flooding through the window. Soothing. I am glad to have him by my side and it might be official. He helps me figure out who I am whenever I am with him.

"By the way, its a letter. Someone gave it to you while you weren't in class."

After he finished getting it out of his glove compartment he hand it over and ask me to read it. I was not sure if it was right because, these feelings may slip.

"Why read it when I have you?"

I smiled and put it in my backpack.

I don't need to read some anonymous letter because the person I want to hear feelings from is Taylor.

"Good to know, Shawn."

- :) -

i swear i make shawn seem like an idiot in this book,

why cant he figure out it is taylor this whole time?

well it makes sense later.

& yay typing on laptop is somehwat faster

[ june 25 15 - 3:22 p ]