Do you even know?

Six Letters I can't let go

Six loveing letters

Why can I not help but love them

I have three, but the six come back stronger then ever

I still feel like I know them

I still can look at the pictures and smile

I still smile at his voice

It's weird to think about the love I left behing

The love I was forced to get over

I built a bridge

Thinking that I wouldn't have to cross it again

I abandoned it

I remember when he caved in

Left his scars

I remember the times we had the year before

Thinking about how we are getting along this year

The six letters gave me a choice

Whether to let him go

Or let him stay

I gave in and couldn't let him slip away

Nothing he says is out of line

It's just like old times

Laughing, and singing like nothings new

He admitted to the want to kiss me

How am I supposed to just ignore that?

I have the three, yes

But who came first?

Who already had a shot?

Who do I love more?

That last one is impossible to answer.

There's no contest.

I love each differently

But, I wouldn't be able to choose.

The three are in my heart

The three words come with each parting and each kiss

I admit, I feel the same towards the six I felt the year before

I thought I had let them go, but I just can't

Before parting with the four letters, I thought of the six

The night before the final good bye

I thought of him, wondering if I was even over him

It's obvious that I'm not

They haven't changed one bit

The four letters are long gone

Refusing to even look at me

But the six came back just as strong as before

The songs he sings give me chills

The things he says makes me smile

There's no denying it.

But the questions come up in my head again

Why me?

What does he see?

I'm nothing special

I'm nothing new

He could get any girl he wants

Yet, he chooses me

Why? I ask him sometimes

But I feel like I'm asking a stupid question.

What does he see in me that I can't see in myself?

My music is okay, nothing that stands out

My words are full of love and hate

My voice is nothing abnormal

My smile is nothing fancy

My actions are nothing new.

So what is it that he sees?

I know what the three see in me

I know what I see in the three

But, what about both of them makes them so...

Perfect? I guess that's a bad word to use

Lovable? Thats better.

I love everyone who I have ever dated

I can't help that.

But something is different about the six

The three is close to me.

But, what would happen if I did have him anymore?

Would the six help me through the night?

Would the six be there to catch me when I fell?

I trust the six, more then I should.

I can't help that.

I care about the six

I can't help that either

I love the six

But in what way?

The questions come back one by one

Will the long list ever end?

I wonder

But I don't want to find out