Do you know what it's like to have almost no emotion
If even for a little while...
I feel like it's the worst feeling in the world
Even when it seems like you are doing well, and starting to recover
It can cause you to relapse
Almost 2 months I was clean
But I gave into the temptation after one thing happening
Loosing people you care about is one thing
But feeling like everyone just uses you and lies to you...
Well, that's another.
The pain is becoming almost too much
People say I'm strong
They say I'm so nice, and so beautiful
But I don't believe them
If I am....
Why am I always the one getting hurt
Why am I always the one struggling
Why am I always the one who is holding everyone up when I'm down?
Sometimes I stay quite
Listening
Observing
Watching
Just to see what will happen next
What is happening
What people are saying
I'm not as smart as people say I am
I'm just observant
I have common sense.
I am able to be logical when others aren't
That doesn't make me smart...
They say I'm beautiful
So why am I always feeling the opposite
People say that I'm nice
But there are things people don't know about me
If they knew they would point and say
"There's that horrible person, she did so-and -so"
I'm not that person
I'm just a numb piece of walking flesh
One who needs help to figure herself out
YOU ARE READING
Do you even know?
PoetryDoes anyone know the feeling that no one knows you? That you always put on such a good act that people can never tell if you are okay or not?
