Online Child (A Dil Howlter Phan Fiction) [Watty's 2015]

Chapter 31: Love vs Lust

Chapter 31: Love vs Lust

Dil's P.O.V:
Its been a week since I met Tabitha. We meet in school but she has her own set of friends. We do glare to each other at the hallway and rumours started to spread, that me and Tabitha are in love or something. This caused some conflict since Erika is just glaring at us, just with those hateful eyes and such. I can sense dark aura around her so I guess she will find a way to ruin it all. But me and Tabitha hang out with each other, we talk over the phone and its great.

Phil started to feel better a bit due to my emotional aura being emitted, however, his love for Dan was stronger and there is nothing I can do that could cure him, at the same time he has some heritage from Willow Creek but also raised out of this area so there is conflict if he wants to be affected or not. He cries every night, he couldn't vlog and he watches the wedding video every single day.

So today, Phil still didnt leave the room. He was there ever since Tabitha. I knocked on the door and got out a box of cereal. I shocked the box, hoping that Phil would hear it.

"Phil... You need to eat" I said.

No response. I listened through the door and he's playing Dead Inside by Muse. This was an all new low for for Phil so I needed to do something. Something that will take bis attention. So I cleared my throat and tried knocked that door once more.

"D-dad... Is everything all right" I asked.

"Leave me alone!" Phil yelled.

"Dad! Talk to me please! I know Dan left but he will come back!" I said as I cried and bang my head on the door. "You told me the story on how guys met and there I am when I was losing hope 3 girls, you helped me get better! So please Phil... don't shut me out! And stop playing that song! Its soo old!"

Phil then opened the door and gave me a tight hug. He cried and he couldn't let me go.

"I miss him" he cried. "And you remind me of him! Well, half of him!"

"Dad... Its going to be ok" I said.

Phil let go of me and started to feel better. He smiled and its the first smile I've seen in days and boy he smelt like Dan's wine.

"Dad... Please wash up" I said. "You smell like hell!"

"You're right, I should" Phil said as he left to the bathroom to wash up.

Minutes later, I was just in my room doing homework and Phil came to my room with a new set of clothes, smelling fresher than before.

"Hey son..." Phil said with those eyes his fans adored. "How you feeling?"

"I'm... ok" I said as I try to do my maths homework. "Da-"

"You can call me by my name if you want" he said. "I know you are used to it".

"Phil, how are you feeling right now?" I asked.

"I'm fine! How about you? How is Tabitha?" he asked.

"Fine I guess..." I said as I look away but Phil knows something is up so he won't stop asking till I tell the truth so I have to be honest. "I'm just scared to ask her out thou".

"Let me guess, after failed attempts with past lovers, even the ones back in London, you fear that this will ruin everything?" Phil asked.

I faced him and I nodded. I was scared and I don't want to screw up and that fear now led me a bit lost as I have no idea where to start. Phil looked around my room and saw a notification for an upcoming essay for Advanced English. He asked if Tabitha also does the course and she does since she's in my class.