I have told the both of you that I have abandonment issues and hate it when people leave me or when I'm alone, yet you tend to ignore and leave me multiple times every day. I didn't want to talk to you because you're negative and I already have so much going on that I can't talk about and I need someone to be there when I need them but that person can't be you because I can't talk to you about what I'm feeling, I can't talk to you when I feel so depressed I just want to be dead. And I'm not going to ask you to be nice or positive because that isn't you and I don't want to ask you to change anything about yourself for me or anyone for that matter.
-what i wrote tonight to the person mentioned in my last update
