It makes me sad to think I try to message my grandmother and father on my mum's side but they live in Chile and I live in Australia so the time difference gets in the way of calling, so I'll text like a line once a month and my grandmother doesn't really answer and my grandfather does when I do text him, what bothers me is I'm a minor and we aren't exactly in a position to fly to Chile so if something were to happen, if they were put in a nursing home or for a death to occur I wouldn't be able to go to the funeral, nor say goodbye. I see them once a year and it's hard y'know, not knowing when will be the last time I see or hear from them
On my dad's side they dont live together but they live in Australia, my dad's normally busy tho or they are so we don't see them often and when my dad sees his mum they'll fight about something and I don't really see my dad's dad too often, not really sure why. I'd be able to go to their funeral and I am grateful for that, I hope it doesnt happen any time soon though because I want to be able to see them a few more times before then.
I'd like to be able to have a marriage or something they could attend, doesn't have to be that but I want them to be able to see something big happen, like a graduation or something like that, something that would make them proud of me
God's been really testing me lately, first Lily then my dog has a gash on his neck (it scarred over now so he's ok) and then my grandpa on my dads side got COVID. And I lost basically all of my friends.
I just don't know what he's going to though at me next, he's been testing my Tia too, it was her cat and she's not having much luck relationship wise, and like she's beautiful, and she's funny. Yes she has kids but she deserves someone to make her happy who also is good with her kids.
Maybe I did something in a past life so gods testing me now. I'm not sure. It's getting old fast though.
Ciao :)
