I lay alone awake at night waiting for a reply.
Does it come? No.
I wait in the dark.
All I can think is I want to cry.
Die.
Waiting for the reply.
Will it ever come? I wonder.
No.
So I lay.
I lay alone awake at night,
Hoping, wishing, waiting for the buzz on the phone.
The glow.
Wanting, wishing waiting.
All to be disappointed in the morning.
So I text first.
No reply.
Later, again.
I text.
Does it come? No.
I center my world around the reply.
Each day the world falls.
Hope leaves.
No reply.
I'm just left.
To die.
I'm not really sure why I did this, I feel so dead at night. There's this person I talk to, a good friend, and when she doesn't respond I'm just left with my thoughts. The idea behind this was some sort of poem I guess and I know it's not very good. I really wasn't feeling it, kinda just wanted to die y'know? The main reason I haven't is family but even then I'm not a great person, I'm angry all the time and just generally unpleasant, I push everyone away and am hurt that I'm alone. I don't want to reach out to someone because I know there are people with real stuff going on and Im just attention seeking. Does anyone else feel this way?
~~~this was a really crappy poem type thing i wrote a while go on my circle~~~
I've found they really help me when i need to talk to someone, this poem thing is about a person i care about a lot but we get into fights a lot and right now we aren't talking so I'm once again, waiting for the reply. its been hard for me lately and my circle has really helped me to feel heard and connected to others who have different but similar experiences, its great for just positivity.
Ciao
