So yay.. my birthday in 2 days.. amazing..
I feel fucking nauseous...
I don't know what to do.. I.. like I asked my friends hey do U wanna come over? Are you going to youth? No no no no no.
I'm so.. so.. so done
Like ik everyone got a birthday but I've had a really shitty one for the last 3 years.. and I just feel like shit now.
And it's always sorry I can't I'm busy or sorry parents said no or sorry I'm sick. Sorry sorry sorry.
Fuck sorry. Sorry means shit.
It's dumb I know I shouldn't feel so fucking upset but I'm shaking.. what the actual fuck. Why am I shaking.
I've had so much fucking anxiety lately and I've been stressed and I just don't fucking know anymore.
I have no idea if I even want my fucking.. I don't even know what they are to me atm. I just don't know.
I have to go clean my fucking house because my mum said too. Don't see any point tho, ain't got people coming over.
And I have to finish two assessments before Friday. So fucking lucky.
Might update later.
