i want you hyunjin || hyunlix

18 (seungin)

- seungmin -

"yes, yes, i know i'm late," i hear minho huff before his voice is muffled by the door of his room closing. hyung had promised to video-call with his family tonight but due to our recording session running really late, his parents and three cats were forced to wait.

i shake my head and smile to myself as i continue my mission of gathering snacks for me and jeongin's movie night. i dig through the cabinets, grabbing an assortment of crinkly bags and packets before bringing them over to the ottoman and laying them out nicely. then i wander over to the closet in search of a fluffy blanket. after a little digging, i find a navy blue one and bring it over to the couch, casually draping it over one of the armrests. finally, i sit down, angling myself so i can easily see the door to the apartment. i pick up my phone and tap into twitter, scrolling aimlessly and glancing up every thirty seconds to check if jeongin is back yet.

it feels weird to sit still after the whirlwind of the last thirty minutes. hyunjin and felix had left to do their own thing for dinner while the rest of the group had decided to eat at the jyp cafeteria. but, when minho walked in, he remembered that he had promised to call his parents tonight. he rushed back to the apartment and i tagged along, using "keeping him company" as an excuse to get the apartment ready for me and jeongin's date. minho and i quickly ate some ramen together and now he is video-chatting his family while i sit and wait for jeongin.

    i just realized that, in my mind, i called this movie night with jeongin a "date". but that would imply that jeongin knows about this plan and agreed to it (which he did not) and that he is interested in me romantically (which he most likely is not).

blinking at my phone screen, i realize that i hadn't actually taken in any of the information on the post i was "reading" because i had been so lost in thought. i let out a short breath through my nose and scroll to the next post.

am i nervous? my chest feels tighter than usual and i feel a little sweaty. at this realization, i get up and step into the bathroom, quickly re-applying deodorant before returning to my spot on the couch. i practice breathing in the way my vocal instructor taught me, hoping it will help me calm down. i breathe in deeply through my nose, filling my belly with air, before releasing it slowly through my mouth.

after a few repetitions, my heartbeat slowly returns to its usual pace and the tension in my chest lessens. it's going to be okay. even if the vibe of our movie night isn't romantic, it will still be nice to spend time with him. with that thought in mind, i'm able to relax and actually read a few tweets.

     then i hear the doorknob turn and my eyes dart up from my screen. the door opens and the youngest member of stray kids steps in. his eyes quickly find mine and he acknowledges me with a little head nod and smile. he looks soft and sleepy with his grey mahagrid sweatshirt and messy hair.

"how was the food?" i ask, putting my phone down and watching as jeongin kicks off his colourful chunky shoes by the door.

"too green," he answers with a grin. "i would have preferred some fast food." then he glances around. "hyung is on his call, right? i should probably call my family too. it's been a while since i've talked to my brothers."

"oh, i-" i start, feeling my chest deflate as i debate whether or not i should ask him to stay. "nevermind," i decide, shaking my head.

"no, what? what is it?" jeongin asks, looking confused. "tell me." i look over at the snacks i laid out and bite my lip. then i look back over to him.

"i was hoping we could watch a movie together. just the two of us," i ask, feeling embarrassed. "but it's okay. you should call your family. i get to see you all the time and they don't, so it's fine." i finish with a small smile. jeongin makes his way around the couch, trying to figure out what i was looking at, and spots the snacks i set out for us.

     "funyuns and hot cheetos? screw my brothers. let's watch a movie!" jeongin says with a laugh, he turns off the living room light and sits down about a foot and a half away from me, sinking into the couch cushions. i laugh too, grateful that he decided to stay after all. getting more comfortable, i grab the remote and turn on the tv, navigating to disney+.

     "what are we watching?" jeongin asks, looking over at me as he digs his hand around in the bag of funyuns. i smirk slightly as i type in the title.

     "i was thinking of watching 'the greatest showman' since chan liked it so much," i answer and peer out of the corner of my eye to catch jeongin's reaction.

     "the greatest showman? seungmin, i love that movie. i was the one who recommended it to chan-hyung," he explains excitedly.

     "oh, really?" i ask with a grin. chan had told me that jeongin was the one to recommend it and i had noted it down in my brain for a time like this.

     "the soundtrack is amazing. you'll love it," he guarantees, acting playfully overconfident.

     "if you say so," i respond, rolling my eyes and clicking play. jeongin's eyes glue to the screen and i use the opportunity to take a few seconds to admire him. in the dim glow of the tv, he looks like a prince with his fox-like eyes and perfectly smooth skin. his faded pink hair looks soft and i want to reach out and touch it.

     powerful vocals burst through the speakers and i pull my eyes away from him as the first song begins to play.

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