MISSION: Fall In Love

MISSION 19

Sasha looked down at her sister's fresh grave.

The ceremony was beautiful; half the town came to pay their respects which she hadn't really noticed. The whole service seemed surreal, and to have to accept her sister was gone and would never smile again, would never have that child she had always wanted just gave her an unexplainable pain in the deepest part of her heart and soul. The day had been cloudless and bright and lost on her as she felt dark and empty. But the worst feeling of all was the guilt she had over not showing her genuine happiness more when Nam visited, and for not trusting the fact she knew something was wrong and could've gotten her sister away from Nop. Instead, she was just an asshole, showing how she hate her for all the years they spent apart because she didn't know how to leave the past where it belonged.

On the other hand, Nikki only stood afar and watched Sasha, giving her her own space. Everyone already left; it was the burial with no reception afterwards because that's how Sasha said her sister would've wanted it. But if it's up to her, she wanted to wrap her arms around the girl and only let go once all her pain was gone. But then again, she knew that there's nothing she could do to take away that cursing feelings and it was killing her inside.

Sasha's dress was simple. All black but she looked perfect that Nikki couldn't help but want her every time she laid eyes on her to the point that she had to mentally slap herself for thinking so because the timing was always rotten.

While standing meters away from the girl, instead of grieving with her, her mind drifted to the other night. It replayed in her mind over and over as she realized that each time they were together seemed better then the last, that she was beginning to think that was impossible. But that night proved her wrong.
That night where they discovered lots of things about each other that only the two of them has to know. The night where they became more honest and raw to each other. And as the wind blows away Sasha's hair, Nikki couldn't shake away the thought of her underneath her body. She longed for the feeling of her smooth skin against hers, every curves of her body she used to trace both with her fingers and her lips.

What the hell are you thinking, Nicole?! She scolded herself and tried to shook her head to take away those thoughts.

"Damn it!" She softly said as she ran her hand through her hair. She really needed to get a hold of her lust before a mistake was made because she couldn't focus on anything other than the girl's legs.

"Babe, are you okay? You look pale." Sasha said as she tapped her shoulder and that surprised her.

"Ha? I, uhhhh. Yeah! I'm fine. What about you?"

"I love my sister and I respect that she wanted to be buried here because our parents are here. Also, it was her home but it isn't mine. So I want to get this done as soon as possible because I really want to go home now." Sasha said as she glanced one more time at Nam's grave. "I'm missing London."

"Yeah. Me too. Then let's go home as soon as everything's done here. I'm sure Mom and Dad and Richie will be thrilled to see you. But this time, without a thought of killing me." She said, teasing her because the first time Sasha met her parents was when they graduated in their training as a BBI agent. The Armstrongs hosted a dinner in their humble home for Nikki's team and it was quite a memory. Then she grabbed her hand and led her to the car. Their bags were already packed and ready to drive to Bangkok later tonight because Sasha told her that she wanted to leave and join the rest as soon as possible. Nikki knew why she was rushing because besides being a town she hated, it was also the town where her sister was killed in.
Another reason for her to hate her hometown.

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Nikki drove to their Bangkok Base. But while on the road, she couldn't help but keep glancing at Sasha from time to time and wondered what she was the girl thinking since most of the time, she just turn her head to the window side and look blankly outside. She also wondered if leaving Chachoengsao would help the girl even if it was just a little bit.