The Confusing Thing About Relationships

6

It was two a.m, I laid in bed next to my wife who was sound asleep.

It's been almost three hours since I left Amy's apartment, my mind still on her proposal, and if I'm being honest I wasn't just thinking about her mouth skills that she used on me but also the night we bumped into each other at the bar.

I know it's wrong, so wrong...

So why doesn't it feel wrong? Why can't I feel guilty?

I have to admit, the feeling of thrill was amazing, it was the same feeling I felt back then when I would go on adventures with everyone, it made me feel so young.

Now with all this going on, all this responsibility, it was like I couldn't even enjoy my life anymore.

I looked over at my sleeping wife.

She looks so peaceful.

We haven't been this close in bed for a long time, and now we have, I love seeing her this happy.

I swear I will tell her the truth one day but for now I just want for her to be happy and for us to be happy even though it's all because I'm lying to her.

Could I really just keep this up?

....Everything that happened with Amy.... I know it's not right but what she did really helped me in different ways....

I guess that's how she's always been, so helpful.

"Amy...."

The girl who I knew since childhood, who fought by my side, who saved my ass countless times and who cheered me up whenever I was sad, angry, scared even, and especially whenever I was stressed...

This...could just be something temporary, I won't let it last too long, just until I'm ready to figure things out. And if I keep it hidden well enough, no one will get hurt.

This is gonna be risky....and I'm going to savor it.

I made my way out of bed and walked to my balcony as I remembered Shadow's words.

'Well if you make up your mind let us know'

Well shadow, I've made up my mind.

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I was woken up by my phone ringing on my nightstand.

Of course I was annoyed by this and I wanted to just ignore it but if the ringing continued then Rose would probably wake up.

I looked at her as she was snuggled against my chest so it was a bit more difficult to leave the bed but I still managed, I grabbed my phone and looked at who was calling me and was even more annoyed when I saw that it was that blue idiot.

What does he want at this hour?

As I was leaving the room I finally answered the call.

"You better have a good damn excuse for calling at this hour"

"Yea,sorry I was just wondering....um, so when is your next mission?..." I smirked to myself "So, you really enjoyed Rose's mouth that much, huh Faker"

"Shut up....this is only temporary"

"What, is the wife not giving you any, or are you too afraid to even sleep with her"

"Could you just tell me when the next time you'll be gone"

I let out a sigh of annoyance, I didn't want to think about anything at the moment "Look I'm to tired to talk about all this, we can talk more later"

"Since when does the "ultimate life form" get tired?"