the bad couple

chapter 52

Me and callum take seats near the back on the sandy hills and i rest my head on his shoulder as we entwine our hands, having some sort of thumb war, soon a loud bang erupts through the speakers and everyone's attention turns to the screen, poltergeist begins playing on the screen and immediately a group of girls stand up to walk away, i roll my eyes at them and snuggle closer to callum enjoying the movie.

When it finally ends callum and me head back to the cabin and we get ready for bed, me and callum climb onto the sofa and snuggle while watching family guy together, I'm not paying attention though, I'm focused on callum who's holding me close and tight to him, he plants a gentle kiss on my head and a small smile creeps it's way into my face, i turn around and kiss him softly and then the kiss deepens and i turn around straddling his waist, his hands hold my waist supporting me and my hands rest on his shoulders steadying myself.
"wait, leia if we go any further, i won't be able to stop" he says pulling back, i kiss his jaw and let my lips linger at his ears.
"i don't want to stop" i whisper.
"leia, we don't have to do this" he says supportively.
"I want to callum, I'm ready" i say convincingly, he looks into my eyes as if to be sure I'm sure and then he begins kissing me again, passionately and hungrily, his lips drop to my jaw and then my neck, nibbling on a sensitive spot, i moan in pleasure and gently tug his hair, i kiss him back on his lips and then I drop slowly to his jaw and neck, dropping to his chest and letting my hands roam over his defined abs and hard chest, his hands drop to the bottom of my top and he slowly glides his hands up slipping my top off over my head, he pulls back and looks into my eyes.
"are you sure?" he asks breathlessly.
"stop ruining the mood and kiss me" i say pulling him closer i feel him chuckle and it comforts me, right now, i don't feel pressured to do it in order to feel normal or to make callum think I'm normal, i want to do this because callum makes me feel safe, with mark i do it because he convinced me to and i was too scared to stop it, i felt pressured as if I had to do it with him but with callum i want to, i need to be with him in every way, I'm not a slut, i love him and that's all I care about, anyone can say that I'm a whore or a slut for doing this but I'm doing this because I love him.
Callum gently lays me down on the sofa and slips my shorts off, i fumble with his buttons and eventually slip them off, he leans down and begins kissing my chest, licking and nibbling it being sure to leave a mark, his hands snake around my back and he unclips my bra slipping it off my arms and throwing it to the floor, he gently massages my breast and i moan in pleasure, his fingers hook my panties and he slips them down my legs using his legs to take them off completely, i slip his boxers off and he grabs a foil packet, slipping on a condom.
"are you sure?" he asks supporting himself in his elbows as he lays over me.
"yes callum, i want to be with you" i say to him and he looks in my eyes being sure I'm ok before he gently enters me and I moan in pleasure, callum leans down and kisses my neck softly, as he gently thrusts deeper inside of me my nails dig into the skin of his back and my eyes roll to the back of my head, I moan in pleasure and he moans back, i kiss his neck and softly bite his skin.
"fuck i live you leia" he moans as I continue to kiss him, I smile as the words leave his lips.
"i love you too" i say and continue to kiss him, he thrusts deeper inside of me and we moan together, i get lost in the moment, the overwhelming pleasure, the love we share for eachother, the feeling of happiness and safety when I'm with him, i love him so much and i never want to be away from him ever again, i cant believe I let him go, I'll never make that mistake ever again.
"oh my god, i love you so much callum" i moan as I tug on his hair.
"i love you so much leia" he replies.
"promise" I say to him.
"promise"he says and i hear a smile in his voice.
He thrusts deeper and deeper and i continue to moan in overwhelming pleasure, this feels amazing, i love him so much and I've never felt closer to him.
Soon i feel him spill out into the condom, i follow in his steps and he pulls out of, discarding his condom and he flops down beside me, wrapping his arms around me pulling me close to his body.
"that was amazing callum, i love you so much" i say to him quietly and a smile creeps into our face.
"i love you too, are you ok though? I didn't hurt you or anything, did I?" he asks rambling, i laugh at him before answering.
"I'm ok callum, i wanted to do that, i didn't feel pressured or like I had to do that, i wanted to because I love you and want to be closer with you, I'm fine, i promise" I say cuddling into his chest.
"okay, i love you leia, so much"
"I love you too" i don't feel dirty or used or anything like I did after me and mark would do it, i feel close to callum, i feel happy now, safe, i love him so much, i cant imagine life without callum, he's an amazing person and i never want to lose him.
I fall asleep in his arms and instead of nightmares i have dreams about our life, how happy we are together, how happy we feel, how close we are, how much I love him, i cant describe my love for him, i never will be able to describe it, but I know he understands it because I know he feels the same way.