Dear Levi

Chapter 15

Dear dad,

I stayed with Korey until I finished highschool, it was only half a year but I missed Tyler like never before. After school I spent most of my time in his room at the mental hospital. First of course I shared my time between Tyler and Jack, but as soon Jack left the hospital I took him with me to Tyler. After I explained my feelings to Jack he respected that I didn't want to be in a romantic relationship with him anymore, but he insisted of staying friends. And then one day he wasn't at school. I wasn't  worried because he skipped school alot. I wasn't worried until two cops walked in the classroom, calling out my name. They told me he drove to San Francisco and jumped from the golden gate bridge. 

He left me a note saying that it wasn't me, that it had to be this way, that he was never going to be happy again. He told me that he loved me more than anyone else.

I was destroyed.

I finished high school in a blur and took a gap year. I bought a small bus and drove around the country, educating schoolkids about mental illnesses, suicide prevention and LGTBQA+ issues. And at the end of that year I felt happy. I was able to finally except your lost and the lost of Jack and got peace with myself. 

I decided to apply to universities, but I also wanted to see more of the world than only the US, so I applied to a couple of universities in the UK. I already know a lot of people from around there. I choose to study philosophy at University College London. So I said goodbye to my family and friends in the US and left for the UK.

I was really nervous for my first lesson, not knowing anyone out there and being the odd one out. So I set down on my own and opened my books. The teacher began his teaching and as the model student I was I wrote down all the things he said. Five minutes in the door opened again, and a beautiful girl walked in. The teacher stopped writing on the board and looked to her, slightly shaking his head. 

"Miss Deyes, I am happy you decided to come, sit down next to the new boy, his name is Levi, he's from the US."

"Levi fucking Mellet?!?"

"Sophia?"

She runned to me and launched herself in my arms.

"Wow Levi, I haven't seen you since... Well you know, the burial.... How have you been?"

We were interupted by our teacher.

"Well, I am glad you two like eachother, now sit, I want to continue my lesson, if I may."

That was the beginning of our love story. Sophia and I fell in love so hard it hurt, and we had the best times of our lives in uni. Together with our group of friend we created a program for students and teachers with mental health disorders, such as depression and anxiety, both close to our hearts. The last two years I runned a suicide prevention line for students specific, which grew out to be the number one suicide prevention line nationwide, I called it the Jack Project. I spoke at an international convention about how important it was to raise awereness about mental instability caused by school and how we, as the people could prevent the biggest cause of death under students. 

And then came graduation day. Everybody flew to the UK, most of them staying in the big ass villa of the Deyes family. Dad, Korey and his husband, a very old queen Jacky, a lot of my highschool friends too. And I couldn't be happier standing on that stage and speeching about how the tradgedies in my life didn't stop me from making a difference.

You should have seen Tyler, he was glowing of pride and for the first time since you left I didn't have the feeling that I wasn't good enough. And right then, right there I asked Sophia to be my wife and she said yes. I was the happiest man alive, and still I missed something. That night I spent the night in our callcentre. We weren't expecting any phone calls so I drank some with my friends and when they left and I was alone I took my last beer and set down on a chair in the middle of the room. And suddenly a phone rang. I picked it up.

"Jack's project, how can I help you this night?"

"Hey Levi, it's me."

I immediately recogised your voice.

"Turn around."

I turned and there you were, still wearing the suit you wore on your wedding day. 

"I just wanted to tell you how proud I am. I know you haven't had it easy, but somehow you turned all the pain in motivation and power and you don't understand how proud I am. You have done a great job with being the best son I could ever ask for. Thank you so much. There is one thing I wanted to tell you for a long, long time and that is that there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you. I love you, don't ever forget that"

Then he disapeared and the phone rang again. 

"Hey brother"

I recognised the voice of Jack this time and when he turned around I saw him, his beautiful black locks and his pierce blue eyes.

"I am so sorry for what I did, but I am so happy you turned my legacy in something so powerful and you honered my memory with this business. I am proud of you brother, and I miss you."

He then dissapeared and dazed I left the building. 

That was 4 years ago, and now I married the woman of my dreams, and have a beautiful twin, a girl and a boy. The girl we called Eliza Jaqueline and the boy we called Joseph Sivan. They are both healthy and the most gorgeous babies I have ever seen. Tyler found a man at my graduation ceremony, and I really think he fell in love again. He is happier than ever, they even bought a new dog. I like that man, I really do, he makes dad happy and that makes me happy. 

Dad asked me if I thought you would be okay with it. I slapped him and said that he shoudn't be that stupid.

I love you, 

Levi Mellet