Dear Levi

Chapter 8

Dear Levi,

It's the 24th of December, the day before christmas. Me, Tyler, you and both of our families have flown to Sweden. We stayed in Kiruna for two days and then rented a couple of cars to drive to Lapland. I think you will remember this story I am going to tell, because you were right there, but I like to tell the story. I still can't believe this has actually happened. I could never wished for this, it's like the begin of a happy ending.

Living in Australia we never had a white christmas, and since I was as little as you I used to wish for one, although I knew it wasn't happening. Till my 12th I had never seen any snow, until my parents took me and my siblings on holiday to Canada. 

I never stopped dreaming about a white christmas, though, and Tyler knew that. So, as a early christmas present, he gave me a ticket to Sweden, to Lapland, to be exactly. It's beautiful here, everything looks so clean, covered in the whitest snow I have ever seen. 

I am staring to the ring on my hand, and I can't help to feel insanely happy. I can hear Tyler snor softly in the other room, I can hear the snow falling on the roof, but besides that, it is so quiet here. I could never imagine something being so quiet. My thought are going all around the place, but I can't help it. Some people say they had only experienced one moment that they really felt happy. I can't say that, I felt completely happy so many times, your birth, your first day of school, that day when you hugged my head and told me that you loved me, that time Tyler sang you to sleep when you were ill, now, yesterday, tommorow, everytime my dearest people are around me. I am so blessed, and everytime I open my eyes I realise that.

So just a couple of hours ago, we went for a walk, just the two of us, your dad and I, in the quietness of nature. It was cold, of course, and my breath left my mouth in small clouds. Tyler held my hand and we walked for a bit, enjoying the peace and sound of snow falling on our beanies. Ever since we have landed here I felt so good, so alive. So when I saw the first new snow fell I bended over and formed a big snowball in my bare hands. It was ice cold, but I didn't care. Before I knew it Tyler and I were in this massive snow ball fight, giggling like young kids. We chased eachother through the snow, but suddenly Tyler stopped, looking upwards in total wonder.

'Troye, look.'

He said, pointing to the sky. What I saw was so beautiful, blue, green and orange painted the sky, and I opened my mouth to say something, but at that moment no words could describe the beauty of those colours adorning the black, night sky.

'It's beautiful.'

I softly grabbed the fabric of Tylers coat and pulled him a little closer, watching in his beautiful eyes as his glasses reflect the colourful show that was playing above us. I kissed his lips gently and then looked up again, his body still pushed agains mine. I felt him move and when I looked down, he felt on his knees in front of me, his hand reaching for something in his pocket.

'Troye Sivan Mellet, I had the honor to live next to you for a long time know, and I am devastated that our time will soon come to an end. You know I am not good with words, and you know that if I had the chance I would talk centuries about how much love my heart contains for you, but we don't have the time for that. They gave us forever within the numbered days, so let us be forever, because I know I will never stop loving you. Troye Sivan Mellet, will you give me the honor to marry me?' 

He opened a little box which held a beautiful ring, simple yet incredible elegant. There were no diamonds on it, it was just a solid, ring made out of white gold. 

Tears were streaming down my face, and my knees were shaking so badly that I landed on the ground in front of Tyler. For minutes I couldn't bring myself to say a word, although I already knew my answer. I just looked at my hands and saw them reaching to Tyler, cupping his jaw and forcing him to look in my eyes.

'Tyler Oakley, how could I ever say no that such beautiful man sitting in front of me.'

'So your answer is...Yes?'

'Of course it is, doofy, come here, let me kiss you.'

I called out and pulled him closer to me. He fell over me and I felt the cold snow melting on my exposed skin. Tyler hovered over me, his warm breath caressing my face. He kissed my nose. He openen the box again and got the ring out, showing me the engraving on the ring, אַפ שטענדיק, it said, immediately recognising the letters as the jiddisch word for forever, my parents had the same word on their ring. I held my hand out and he shoved the ring around my ringfinger.

'I love you, Troye Sivan Mellet.'

'I love you too, Tyler Oakley.'

Levi, some will say that love is just a concept made by over-imaginative teenagers, and that no two humans can love eachother so much as they tell us. Let them talk, because maybe we, your dad an I, were just an exception, maybe we were just lucky that we had so little time, but we were that dream relation. We were that perfect couple, of course we had our fights, of course your dad drove me crazy sometimes, but that's the most stupid of love, they don't matter in the end. I still remember Tylers words: we are the perfect couple, we are just not in the perfect situation, and I hope you keep that in mind too, when you have a relation yourself.

Yours truly,

Your loving dad, Troye Sivan Mellet