CHAINS

Chapter 18

Like what Asher said, sa Italian restaurant nga kami pumunta. Hinayaan ko nalang silang mag order nang para sa kanila. Tubig lang ang inorder ko dahil hindi naman ako gutom. At hindi naman ako mahilig sa Italian foods.

Pero dahil pakialamero si Ashton, kung anu yung inorder niya sa sarili niya ay yun din ang inorder niya para sa akin. He gave me that death glare of his again kaya napilitan nanaman akong hayaan siya sa mga gusto niya. Kahit walang gana ay sinubukan ko paring kainin yung.... anu nga ba yun? Hindi ko alam ang pangalan ng pagkain.

Habang kumakain naman kami ay nagkukuwentuhan naman ang mag ama. I just stayed silent at sumasagot lang ako kapag sinasali ako ni Asher. Wala akong ganang makipag usap kay Ashton. Our conversation doesn't always end well.

After eating, we went back to the hotel. But he only dropped us off kaya naiwan kami ni Asher sa suite namin. I washed him first bago siya binihisan ng mas komportableng damit. Iniwan ko siya sa kwarto na naglalaro sa iPad niya at ako naman ang naglinis ng katawan.

I stared at my naked body in the mirror. Especially on the right side of my waist. The redness was visible already and tomorrow, it's gonna turn purple. I traced it with my finger. Pinindot ko iyon at napangiwi ako ng maramdaman ang sakit duon.

I sighed. This is gonna be my reality again. Everyday is gonna be a chaos. I'll start being careful of what I'll say again. Of the things I do. My job, I'll definitely lose it.

My sanity, I'll probably lose it too.

If I don't escape now, I'll never be able to do it once we get married. I will be like all the wives of his brothers. Puppets. Only thing they're good at in the eyes of men is giving birth to heirs.

They don't give a fuck about their women. Ashton is the best example. Halos dalawang araw palang kaming magkasama pero yung pasa ko, sandamkmak na. He's controlling me again. For almost 3 years, ganun lagi ang scenario. It lessened when i finally moved out pero nandun parin ang mga threats. But still i was free to get a job. To do what i want and to feel safe in my own space.

The wives didn't get to do that. That's one reason not to marry him. Ofcourse he did worse things that solidified my decision not to marry the bastard.

The men in that family are Evil, vile, heinous, corrupt and more.

My son is not going to turn out like that. We'll definitely escape this hell.

I sighed again. How will i do that.

Napahilamos ako ng mga palad ko. I'm so tired. I went outside the bathroom at nagbihis ng pantulog. I want to sleep. I want to have a clear mind tomorrow para makapag isip.

Tinabihan ko si Asher sa kama na nakaupo at busy sa paglalaro sa iPad niya. I stared at him for awhile. He is so beautiful. I have so much hope for our future dahil nakasalalay ang buong pagkatao niya duon.
I leaned down and sniffed his hair. It smells like lilac. My favorite scent.
I started caressing his soft hair. I can't believe i gave birth to this little man. The love of my life. My lifeline. I never thought i could love someone like this intense.

I thank God for giving him to me.
I sighed before kissing the top of his head and laid down on the bed. Hindi ko na namalayang nakatulog na pala ako. But before i fell into deep slumber, i heard my son say 'sleep well, mummy', that made my heart so full of joy. Ahh.... The perks of being a mother.
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Third person's POV

It has been a few minutes when Molly left the room with her fiancé and son. Blaine is facing the floor to ceiling window and is just staring at the buildings in front of him.

The room has been silent after they left.

Nakakuyom ang mga kamao ni Blaine na nasa loob ng bulsa niya. It has been years, yet the effect is still the same. She still manages to make his heart beat faster. He has been thinking about her ever since the wedding. Akala niya wala na yung ganung pakiramdam, yun pala, andun parin. Alam niyang galit na galit siya kay Molly pero mas nanaig ang sakit na nararamdaman niya.