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Kinaladkad niya ako papuntang kama at marahas na itinapon duon. Before I could even get up, kinubabawan na niya ako at gamit ang kaliwang kamay niya, hinawakan niya ang dalawang palapulsuhan ko at iniligay ang mga iyon sa ulunan ko.
"I gave you every fucking chance to accept my proposal! I gave you the fucking time!" He was grinning from ear to ear and I could see the evil glint in his eyes.
Lalo pang tumingkad ang kagwapuhan niya dahil sa pagngiti niya pero hindi ko ma-appreciate yun ngayon dahil sa lakas ng kabog ng puso ko.
I would be lying if I said I'm not scared. Cause right now, I'm terrified.
"Let go Ashton!" Pilit ko paring pinatatag ang boses ko kahit nanginginig na ang buong katawan ko at nangangatog na ang mga tuhod ko.
He let go both of my wrist but he buried his face In the crook of my neck. I could feel his hot breath fanning on my neck and It sent shiver down my spine. "I have all the power to take my son away from you and I think you know that."
I tried pushing him but to no avail, I was only wasting my energy. He did not even budge. Even a tad bit.
Naramdaman ko ang pagdampi niya ng maliliit na halik sa leeg ko kaya sinubukan ko ulit na itulak siya. This is bad. Hindi pwedeng may mangyari ulit sa amin. Ayoko na!
I tried getting him off from me by pushing him pero katulad ng naunang subok ko, walang nangyari. Nakadagan parin siya sa akin at nahihirapan na ako huminga dahil sa bigat niya. Mas lalo kong pinag-igihan ang pagtulak sa kanya. I'm panicking already dahil alam ko na ang ibig niyang sabihin kanina. Ayokong mangyari ulit yun!
The memory of the last time is still haunting me. It was the scariest memory i had with him.
"I won Asher's custody! So he's mine!" Hirap na wika ko at pilit paring tinutulak siya.
Tumigil siya sa paghalik sa akin at hinarap ako. "Do you really think you won the custody because you're more deserving to be a parent to Asher? Think again my dear." Still grinning, he tucked a few strands of my hair behind my ear. "I payed the fucking judge to let you win!"
He gave me a sarcastic chuckle when I gasped at his statement. "I've been letting you think you've won honey. But you know better. Right?"
My eyes started to water. "That's not true! I won because I'm a better parent than you!" I shouted again. Still struggling to push him. Ayokong maniwala. Ayokong makinig pa sa kanya.
Sinuntok ko ang dibdib niya kahit alam kong wala iyong magiging epekto sa kanya. I hate him!!
"We both know I was the one who should have won Molly." He gripped my jaw and made me face him again.
"He's mine!! He's mine!!" I started crying. Sobbing. Not because of the physical pain but because of what he said.
He's lips curled devilishly.
He wiped my tears and before I knew it, he was roughly kissing me. Attacking my mouth hungrily.
I was caught off guard kaya parang tuod akong hindi nakakilos agad. But when the shock had worn off, I tried pushing him with all my might. But like always, he didn't even budge. He's bigger than me. How can I possibly fight this giant when I'm just like a mere midget to him.
He was still gripping my jaw but I still managed to keep my mouth shut. Sinubukan kong ilayo ang mukha ko sa kanya pero hindi ko nagawa dahil sa hawak parin niya ang panga ko. His grip was getting tighter. Alam ko bukas may pasang maiiwan sa panga ko. It always happen whenever he hurts me. I'm just too good at concealing it from my son.
Pero kahit na masakit ang panga ko ay pinanatili kong nakatikom ang bibig ko, not allowing his tongue to enter. Yes, it was painful but I will not let him in.
Tears were flowing down my cheeks. Tuloy tuloy ang pag agos ng mga luha ko, animo'y isang ilog ma walang humpay sa pag agos. My heart was thumping so loud I could hear it. I'm so scared because of what he's capable of doing to me tonight. Not again!
Pero Mariin kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko para pigilan ang mga luha ko. I don't want to be weak in front of him.
I struggled again to get away from his punishing lips. I couldn't breathe anymore. I need to breathe! !
I tried tilting my head to the other side but he managed to follow my lips.
Nang tuluyan na niyang pakawalan ang mga labi ko, isang marahas na paghinga ang ginawa ko. Napasinghap ako. Pilit na pinupuno ang baga ko ng hangin.
But then, he attacked my mouth again and he took that opportunity to invade my mouth. Naipasok niya ang malikot niyang dila sa loob ng bibig ko. Exploring and tasting my essence. Devouring and greedily biting my lower lip and pulling it at the same time. My lips are getting numb from his attack and I could already taste the blood in my mouth.
I still struggled to get away. I scratched, clawed, slapped and punched him with all I had.
He suddenly stopped and he rubbed my swollen lips with his thumb.
"You have been very stubborn. Upsetting my son in front of me is the last straw." He leaned over and gave me a short yet rough kiss again. "This is the last chance I'll give you. If you refuse to marry me.. then i have no fucking choice anymore."
He grinned again, pressing his forehead to mine. "You have a fucking month to decide. It's either you marry me or not see Asher ever again. That's more than enough time to decide." He kissed my cheeks then my nose until he reached my lips. I remained still. Parang nablanko ang utak ko sa mga sinabe niya.
His kiss wasn't a rough one anymore but warm and passionate.
"Choose carefully honey." Nakangising sabi niya bago bumangon at iniwan akong nag iisa sa kama.
Nang tuluyan na siyang nakalabas ng kwarto ay
Hindi ko na napigilan pa ang hikbing kanina ko pilit na pinipigalang umalpas. Napayakap ako sa sarili ko.
Oh God! So this has all been a lie? Sa una palang, planado na pala niya ang lahat. He mainpulated and orchestrated everything. How could I have been so dumb and stupid? Bakit hindi ko naisip yun.
At ngayon, baka kunin niya si Asher sa akin. Hindi ko makakayang malayo sa anak ko. Hindi. I can't live a day without my son. He's my life now and it would kill me if he ever leaves me.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang maalala si Asher.
No.. please. Sana hindi siya kinuha ni Ashton. Please wag naman sana.
Dali dali akong bumangon at pumasok sa kabilang kwarto.
Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng makita kong mahimbing na natutulog si Asher sa kama.
Dahan dahan akong lumapit sa kanya at tinabihan siya.
Hinila ko siya papalapit sa akin at mahigpit na niyakap.
I don't want to lose my baby boy. I can't. Hindi pwede. He's all I've got. He's the only family I have.
Isipin ko palang na malayo sa akin ang anak ko ay sobrang bigat na ang nararamdaman ko. Naninikip ang dibdib ko at parang pinipiga iyon.
Pero ayokong makasama ang isang tulad ni Ashton. Ayokong matali sa kanya habang buhay. Pero anung pang magagawa ko? Ilalayo ni Ashton sa akin ang anak ko.
Alam kong hindi lang basta banta iyon, alam kong kaya niyang gawin iyon.
Oh please... help me.
Iyak lang ako ng iyak habang mahigpit na nakayakap sa anak ko. Na animo'y mawawala siya kahit anong oras.
Hindi ko na namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako sa kakaiyak.
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General FictionAll Molly ever wanted was to live a normal life with her son, Asher. Away from the chaos and violence of her son's father. If she has a choice, ilalayo niya ang anak sa ama nito. But how could she if she doesn't have the means to even escape his cla...
