CHAINS

Chapter 21

After breakfast, Ashton took Asher to another business meeting. Asher was reluctant to go with his dad but I heard Ashton reassured Asher that I was being guarded kaya walang mangyayaring masama sa akin at walang kukuha sa akin. If only he knew that his father is the one who's inflicting pain on me.

I was glad na umalis sila. If they did not leave, Ashton would have forced himself again. i dreaded the time he's gonna come back. For sure, tonight, he's gonna do it again.

Nagkulong ako sa banyo. I was in the bathtub. Kanina pa kinukuskos ang katawan ko as if trying to erase his touch on my body.
I feel like i was gonna puke. Diring diri ako sa sarili ko dahil somehow, i felt pleasure in those moments. My tears are flowing freely. Parang walang katapusan na naman. Halos isa't kalahating oras ako nagbabad. After that ay nagbihis ako. I grabbed my phone and dialled Elliott's number.

"Hey!" She greeted cheerfully when she answered.

Tumikhim ako. "Are you still in the Philippines?" Tanong ko agad. Hindi pinapahalatang namamalat ang boses ko .

" Yes! I went to your suite kagabi. Wala na kayo dun. Akala ko bumalik kayo."

I sighed in relief dahil kailangang kailangan ko talaga siya ngayon.

"We're with Ashton. Nandito siya." I told her honestly.

" What? Really? Where are you then?" She asked, sounding happy about the news.

"Still here sa hotel but in a different suite." I inhaled. " Can i ask you for a favor."

" Ofcourse! What is it?"

"Can you buy me contraceptive pills and yung Plan B pill." Hindi na ako nagpaligoy ligoy pa. I don't have time and I need those pills. I don't want another baby.

Bigla kong nailayo sa tenga ang cellphone ko when I heard her squeal from the other end. " You wh*re! Ang landi mo. Nag chuchukchakan naman pala kayo eh.!"

I wanted to slap her sa kabastuasan ng bibig niya pero next time na. She does not know about what Ashton is doing to me.

"Elliot, please. I'm serious. Can you just do it?" I said with irriration in my voice. " I'm in room 601."
Before she could respond, i dropped the line.

And then I burst out crying again. As much as i love kids, especially my own, I don't want to have it again with Ashton.

I still have trauma in my second pregnancy and how the baby was made.

During the hostage taking, i was 5 months pregnant with my second baby with Ashton.

A result of one of our fights when he found out I got a job. The argument turned violent again and it ended up with him forcing me.
It was the first time since i left his house. I always make sure kasi na kapag hinihiram niya si Asher sa akin, kasama ko yung bagong kapitbahay namin na matanda, si Mrs. Aldridge, para walang magawa si Ashton sa akin. But that day, he just suddenly barged into the house looking so pissed. Nasa poder niya si Asher dahil weekend kaya hindi ko talaga inexpect na darating siya.

Ano naman magagawa ko ng panahon na yun? I tried going to the police the next day, i attempted to report him pero hindi pa ako nakakalayo sa bahay ko, sumulpot ulit siya at kinaladkad ako pauwi and forced me again to teach me a lesson.
I lost hope and so I had to move forward kahit awang awa ako sa sarili ko. I was free and yet, i was still in his control.

But no matter how the baby was made, I loved my baby. She was my angel. I looked forward to seeing her and holding her. I hid it from Ashton. I made sure that my appointments are during my working hours. May malapit na clinic sa workplace ko at patago Akong pumapunta duon. He has a way of knowing everything kaya extra careful talaga ako sa mga ginagawa ko. I don't want him to be a part of our lives.