Pretend Girlfriend

32. Last Day Together

Today was my last day with Xavier. I've spent my other two days with my mom, friends, and Xavier. Belle, Emma, and Xavier question why I hug them tighter and a little longer. I explained to Destiny everything and she understood.

"What do you want to do today?" Xavier asked, grinning.

I looked at the time on my phone; it was 11:14am.

"I just want to stay here with you," I whispered, feeling like I was going to cry. "Let's just...let's just stay here together and do nothing."

"Alright," Xavier replied, flashing me a smile. "We can go out tomorrow or do something then."

I closed my eyes, feeling a tear roll down my cheek. I let out a shaky breath. We couldn't go out tomorrow or ever again.

"Darling, what's wrong?" Xavier asked, making me look up at him. "Why are you crying?"

"I, uh, I just love you a lot, okay?" I said, wiping my tear. "I love you no matter what."

Xavier smiled, leaning in to kiss me. "And I love you."

I kissed Xavier again, holding onto his shirt collar. Xavier placed his hands on my waist, bringing me closer to him. I pulled away from the kiss and softly kissed his neck.

"A little eager now, darling," Xavier chuckled, making me look at him. "You don't have to rush."

I felt my chest tighten again.

"Seriously, what's wrong?" Xavier asked, cupping my cheek. "Do you want to rush things?"

I let out a small laugh, shaking my head. "Nice and slow."

Xavier leaned in to kiss me again. He slowly hovered over me. One last time with Xavier...

~

Xavier kissed my forehead as he traced imaginary figures on my back. He smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile.

"You're so beautiful," Xavier whispered. "So damn beautiful."

I blushed, smiling. "You're beautiful, too."

"I love you," I whispered.

Xavier smiled. "I love you more."

"Impossible," I said, shaking my head.

"Yes, possible," Xavier said, nodding his head.

Xavier kissed me again passionately. He cupped both my cheeks. We both started smiling through the kiss.

I rested my head on Xavier's chest again. I looked up at him smiling and he smiled at me. Out of no where there was a flash. I got scared and realized Xavier took a picture of us.

He used my Polaroid camera and smiled at the picture. "I'm keeping this picture forever."

I grabbed the picture, smiling at the perfect moment between us.

"It's perfect," I whispered. "I wish we could stay like this forever."

"I know, baby," Xavier whispered, kissing my forehead. "Me, too."

I kissed Xavier again, feeling my chest hurt from the fact that I was going to leave him. I pulled away from the kiss, looking up at him.

"I love you, Xavier."

"And, I love you, darling."

~

After Xavier left, I started grabbing my suitcases, getting ready to leave. Once I had all my things I took them to my car. I said my goodbyes to my mom and quickly ran to my room. I sat down on my bed and wrote a letter; a letter for Xavier.

Once I finished the letter, I left it on my bed and took off my necklace he got me. I placed it next to the letter, wanting to cry all over again. I walked to my window and opened it, knowing Xavier would come in through here.

I grabbed my keys and my phone. I walked downstairs and left. Instead of going to the airport first, I went to the cemetery.

When I got there, I walked to my dad's headstone and sat down on the patch of grass, placing the white carnations down.

"Hey, dad," I said, lightly smiling. "I'm sorry I haven't visited you lately; I've been busy.

"You know, sometimes I think you're going to come from around the corner," I said, feeling the tears prickling at my eyes. "I think that you'll hug me and tell me it's okay - that I'll just see you one last time.

"Sometimes I even think you're going to answer me when I'm talking to you," I added, wiping away a tear. "I get my hopes about it even though I know I shouldn't.

"I just...I just hate everything right now, dad," I broke down, crying more. "I just wish you were here to tell me what I should do.

"I'm being forced to leave Xavier," I whimpered, "and I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. If...if I don't go then Mr. Hale will get mom deported and I'm scared of what else he could possibly do...

"What do I do?" I whispered, wishing he'd answer me.

"Why did this have to happen?" I cried, getting that feeling in my throat when you hold in your tears. "People say everything happens for a reason...but I don't see the reason for this. Why did I have to lose you and now I'm going to lose Xavier and everyone else?"

My watch beeped, signaling I was going to be late for my plane. I wiped my tears, standing up.

"I'm sorry again for not coming lately," I whispered. "I'm so sorry."

I sighed, playing with my hands. "And now, I won't be able to visit you and I don't know for how long," I said, feeling myself tearing up. "And I'm sorry for that, too."

A tear rolled down my cheek again and I quickly wiped it. "I love you, dad," I said, letting out a small breath. "See you soon."

I got in my car and started driving to the airport. Once I went through all the line crap, I was waiting for my plane to take off.

I wanted to talk to Xavier so bad and before I knew it I was calling him. He didn't pick up and I got his voicemail.

"Hey, Xavier," I nervously said, biting my lip. "I called because I wanted to hear your voice one last time, but you, uh, you didn't answer."

I sighed, looking down. "I...I love you Xavier Robert Hale; I'll always love you," I heard the announcement saying my plane was getting ready to leave. "I'll miss you."

I hung up my phone and turned it off. I grabbed my things and got on board. I looked out the window of the plane, getting ready to leave.

I'm really doing this; I'm leaving.

OKAY, SO I WAS TRYING TO UPDATE AS FAST AS I COULD BUT I WAS LISTENING TO TROYE AND HAD A MINI DANCE PARTY. Anyway, what did you guys think? SHIT IS ABOUT TO GO DOWN. You have been warned. Until the next update! Xx

~Jess

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P.p.s. You should give my tronnor fic a read. It's called Ocean.