Outsider

When it all went downhill

Just when I thought that I was beginning to have the best life in the world, everything went down hill. Kai just got accepted to Oxford university in England and he leaves in 2 months. We were walking to school on Tuesday and he said
" Babe, I have something to tell you.........I have been accepted to a great university in England and leave in December"
" Oh my gosh..... are you.... are you serious?"
I replied with sadness and anger.
" Yes, but I'm not sure if I am going to go do but i want to, I don't want to leave you and I'll have to move to England" said Kai hanging his head and beginning to sob.
I begin to cry and I stepped towards him and looked at him in the eyes so he could see that I'm hurting and gave him the biggest hug that I have ever gave him.
The next day at school I was quite, I didn't say a word. I was so depressed that I didn't want to come to school. Without Kai it would be lifeless and meaningless. I didn't want Kai to leave but I didn't want him to give up his dreams because of me. I hate having mixed emotions.
All day I didn't speak a word, not one. When Kai and I was walking home it was dead silent. Then Kai said
" Baby girl, I don't know what to do, I want to stay with you but....i want to go to Oxford as well....I'm so confused!"
" It's okay babe If you want to go then go, I don't want to be the one who will stop you from doing the things that you want to" I say with a fake little smile.
Once again there was complete silence. I didn't know what to say...i was to caught up in loving him and not letting him go when I should be encouraging him to go, even if it hurts me to do it.
" I can't leave you baby girl.......i can't and I don't want to" said Kai
" Babe it's going to hurt me but I have to do this, this is a one in a life time opportunity that's may never come again" I replied.
I smiled and gave him a huge hug
" I love you"
"I love you too"