I hated the feeling of not being in a relationship. I hated sitting in my room just staring at the ceiling and listening to music. Do you know how boring that is? Who would voluntarily do that to themselves? All that to feel better about themselves? No, definitely not me. I got up and did something about it. This is where I started distance skating a lot more. I started skating down hills I couldn't before, mostly because I had pushed down my emotions. I had become a person I do not ever want to be again. I was so emotionally distant. After the breakup, I cried once and pushed everything down. I should've cried more, but I just physically could not bring myself to. I had shoved everything down, in my opinion, it was just a dormant volcano waiting to explode.
I hated feeling like I didn't have someone to be with. I just wanted to be with someone ever since I was a kid. I wanted a boyfriend that took care of me. I wanted a boy to love me unconditionally like those boys did. I wanted something like one of those high school romance movies. I could only imagine it though.
My imagination was so vast. Especially in romance. I just wanted to be loved. Only because I have always felt so alone. I know I keep repeating that, but it really affects me. Over time I finally realized this was bad for my mental health. Being alone I mean, it gave me so much time to think about life. Life as I knew it was about to drop the ball on me.
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NonfiksiMy biggest trauma dump ever. There are some snippets of poetry in here called poetry breaks to let you relax for a bit and recollect on what you just read. It gives you a break from the drama henceforth why it is called a break lol. I hope you guys...
