Why bro just why. I didn't need to know that she's in a gang and almost died yesterday. I don't even know what I'm doing with this relationship anymore, I've lost all motivation to even text and use social media, my main focus has been catching up on my show. Whoever took my motivation needs to give it back bro I'm tired of this, I was doing good. I don't know if I'm even losing feelings for her I've just lost motivation to text, I feel like I'm missing someone but I just can't pinpoint who it is.
Is it my old online friends? Is it my old friends in general? I know it can't be that. I'm losing my mind. I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm trying to go with the flow but I've lost track of what I'm supposed to be doing, what I want to do, and what I'm not supposed to be doing. I know I'm not supposed to be ghosting people but I can't control it, if I don't have motivation I don't have motivation, I can't just magically grow back my motivation. Social media has become boring, life is boring, and everything is just boring anymore. I don't know what I'm going to do when my best friend goes on that trip for 3 weeks. I'm lost.
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Vent
Kurgu OlmayanContains a lot of cussing, as well as relationship problems and possible mentions of suicide. If triggered by these topics, do not read. Honestly, half of it is just a rant. Read it if you want I guess.
