Lonely
Dad:
I sent one thousand dollars to your bank account for your school expenses, Maverick.
Riri sent me a voice message that says 'Kuya I miss daddy and you' followed by a sad emoji.
Mom:
Uuwi ka ba this September, Mavric?
"I think your family misses you..." ang boses ni Alessa sa aking gilid nang mahuling tinitingnan ko ang mga natanggap na messages.
I turned my phone off and pulled myself out of bed. Nanatili siya sa kama habang nakabalot ng puting kumot ang hubad na katawan.
"Hindi ka ba close sa kanila?" she asked.
"I should go. I still have my classes," sabi ko, hindi na masyadong nagbigay ng interes sa tanong niya.
Tumango siya at maingat ang tingin sa akin. After what happened between me and Chloe, I decided to get myself a fuck buddy again. This is the third time we've seen each other, but I still feel the same way.
Hindi ko alam kung anong problema. At first, I thought I was just pent up for not being laid off for months while pursuing Chloe, but this is the third time, and I was having a problem again.
When was the last time I was so pleasured while having sex? This is my only distraction when things are too hectic, and yet I was having a hard time finding a pleasure out of it.
"This is the last time?" tanong ni Alessa habang pinapanood akong nagbibihis.
I leaned closer and gave her a kiss. "I had fun."
She laughed a little. "Fun? When you seem distracted all the time?"
She sounded pissed. Maybe because she was having a hard time turning me on as well. Clearly, I have a problem here. Or maybe it was really because...
"Oo nga pala, Mav. Hindi ba't pinopormahan mo si Chloe?" tanong ni Ron nang dumeritso na ako sa court para magpapawis sa ibang paraan.
Sa malapit lang na hotel ako nakipagkita kay Alessa. Siya ang nagyaya this time. I went for it because I wanted to see if I'd be able to fuel myself, but then it happened. Again.
"Hindi na, bakit?" tanong ko.
Nagkamot siya ng batok. "Dude, 'yung pinopormahan ko crush na crush ang kapatid niya. Ilang kapatid ba meron 'to?"
"Isa lang. Lalake."
"Crush na crush, bro! Guwapo ba 'yon? Engineering 'di ba? 'Yung Tejano?"
I shrugged. I don't want to talk about him seriously.
"Natakot si Mavric doon kaya hindi niya na pinopormahan si Chloe," asar ni Tyler at itinuko ang kamay sa balikat ni Ron.
"Malaki nga ang katawan no'n kasi six-footer din. Ano bang sports no'n?" si Ron na mukhang may ideya sa kapatid ni Chloe.
I remembered his physique. He could even flip me like I was just a pillow. And other than that...he's quite strong. Hindi naman pang wrestler ang katawan no'n lalo na kung nakadamit. Pero pag naghubad...
"Boxing siguro? Nabugbog yata 'yang isa diyan," natatawang asar ni Tyler.
Ngumisi lamang ako habang iba na ang tumatakbo sa isip ko. The beating and the fucking both gave me pain and...well pleasure?
"Masyado ka kasing seryoso sa babae," pangaral ni Tyler. "Gayahin mo kami! You know girls nowadays. They wanted a perfect man for themselves. Parang 'yung kahit umulan bumagyo bumaha at lumindol nasa kanila ang atensyon mo."
