Iceberg Meets Sunshine (Syclups #5)

THIRTY FOUR

  

        "And never forget that i love you.. i love you more than anything.."

A group of tears cascaded down to my cheeks as i comprehend those words from his voice. I can't help but to hiccup because of too much cries and weeps.

I tried so hard to control my emotions in order for my baby to stay healthy, but because of my pregnancy hormones, i could do nothing to stop it.

Every sweet words stab my heart like a sharp knife, knowing that it's only recorded and he's not actually here.

It's been months, and it feels like forever to me.

Bakit kami pinaparusahan at pinahihirapan ng ganito? What did we do to have this distance? We only want to live and love each other. We only want to be happy.

Why can't heaven just let us?

Tatlong katok mula sa pintong pinasukan ko kanina ang umalingawngaw sa buong kwarto dahil sa namuong katahimikan pagkatapos ng huling mga salita ni Ken. It's probably the maid that Paulo hired for me.

"Ma'am? Ma'am Hera, handa na po ang hapunan. Kain na po."

I couldn't fix myself and answer her. There's a huge lump in my throat that prevents me from talking and breathing properly.

"Ma'am? Nandyan po ba kayo?"

Sudden severe pain in my head suddenly attacked me as i hiccuped. I firmly closed my eyes to calm my nerves but it only makes me dizzy.

"M-manang..!"

Umiikot ang kabuoan ng kwarto nang sinubukan kong imulat ang mata ko. Hindi na rin ako makahinga ng maayos  dahilan para manakip ang dibdib ko.

I was slowly losing hope until the maid pushed the door open. Shock and fear was evident on her face when she saw my situation. She immediately helped me up while panicking.

My whole body is shacking as i started to overthink about my baby's safety.

"Diyos ko, sir Paulo sagutin mo ang tawag!" she said whilst holding my arm tightly to prevent me from falling.

"I'm s-sorry..." i struggle to speak as i felt my body giving in.

"I'm sorry b-baby.."

Darkness dominated my sight as i collapsed before we can even get near the doorway.

"MA'AM!!"

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     I adjusted my eyes and made it narrow so that i can clearly see what's going on in front of me. Happiness and surprise immediately visited me while watching his tall figure clean and fix the fallen roses and flowers around him.

This place is familiar.

He proposed to me in this place, right?

He moves so elegant and handsome, and i can almost feel how good his mood is. He was even humming to some song while enjoying himself with the nature.

Ken.

I tried to speak and call him but nothing came out from my mouth.

Ken!

I tried calling him again but nothing really came out to hear. I started panicking and my heart started pumping loudly.

What's happening?

I glanced down to my feet and my eyes immediately widened as i saw blood.

"HERA! Love, please hold on. I'm here, baby, I'm here. Please wake up.."

Something had awaken me and my body systems as i felt familiar warmth around my right hand. I couldn't open my eyes and i feel like i am only subconsciously awake. Although the voice and the feelings are so realistic.

"What happened?! Damn, i told you to keep her away from negative and stressful emotions!"

Utomatikong kumunot ang noo ko. My mind don't believe what i am hearing right now and insists that it's all hallucinations.

Tama. Nananaginip na naman ako.

"May sinabi ba kayo o nagawa kaya maghapong umiyak ang asawa ko? Damn, i will really die kapag may nangyari kay Hera, Paulo!"

That is when i suddenly stopped.

I struggled to open my eyes and my heart skipped a bit after his handsome face greeted my sight.
Halo halong emosyon ang bumalot sa akin habang pinagmamasdan ko ang nag aalalang mukha niya. Pagtataka, kasiyahan, takot, at pag aalinlangan.

Totoo ba ang nakikita ko?

Totoo ba ito?

"K-ken?"

Opposite to what happened in my dreams awhile ago, i can finally hear myself while calling his name.

"Ken, i-ikaw naba talaga yan?"

My voice cracked as i struggle to adjust myself to have a better angle and clearer sight.

My eyes met his and it almost made my heart jump out of my body. Kakaibang kuryente ang dumaloy pagkatapos kong matitigan ulit ang matang matagal ko nang hinahanap hanap.

His eyes finally have its emotions again and it feels like its craving for mine.

I never wanted to end it, but i still did when i suddenly remembered something.

Napuno muli ng kaba at takot ang dibdib ko nang dumapo ang aking paningin sa tyan kong kapansin pansin pa rin ang laki.

"M-my baby.. Ken, ang anak ko.. K-kamusta ang anak ko?" my lips trembled as my heart pumps so fast.

"K-ken.."

"Shh, baby. He's fine. Our baby is fine. Don't worry." He leaned closer and press his lips on my temple, it's like he's calming and taming me by it.

"'He's'?.. 'Our baby'?.."

Muli akong napatitig sa kanya dala ng sobrang pagkabalisa at pagtataka. Sobrang dami nang tanong na nabuo sa isipan ko.

"Ken.. do you remember me now?" i asked with watery eyes and hope.

I hope that everything is true and i am not just dreaming. Dahil ikakamatay ko kung ang mga ito ay guni guni at likha lamang ng isip kong nangungulila sa kanya ng sobra.

"Hera, please refrain from asking too mu—"

"No, Paulo. I wanna know. Do you remember me now?" i become a little aggressive as i crave for his answers and clarifications. I wanted to clear my mind and i wanted him to justify himself to me when he called me his wife.

Or was it really a hallucination?

"Snow, you passed out because of too much stress. Please relax, calm down.." Ken cupped my both hands with his warm palms that made me close my eyes firmly.

As my eyes stayed closed, tears of overwhelming joy cascaded and i couldn't stop my heart from celebrating.

Muli na akong naaalala ng mahal ko.