Aris Jones X Reader One Shots

Reality (Part 1)

I don't think that I regret what I did, leaving everything behind. After all, it meant I would finally be able to be with my soulmate. It took three years to get here the first time, and leaving always killed me. That's why I made the decision to shift permanently. I did it for him. I did it all for Aris.

I miss it sometimes, but I don't tell him. Maybe that was a mistake though because now we're here.

"If you're so unhappy here then why don't you leave?"He scowled.

"I'm not unhappy that I'm here, but I think about my old life sometimes. Gally just wanted to know what was off, and I told him,"I defended.

"Why is being here off? You wanted to be here."

"I know that, but I needed to get it off of my chest. You've been the only one who's known, and for once I wanted to talk to someone about it."

"I would let you talk about it. I would listen,"He argued, crossing his arms.

"No. You wouldn't. That's why we're fighting,"I pointed out.

"We're arguing because you've been holding everything inside. You couldn't just tell me. Me of all people, and you've been hiding how you actually feel,"He glared, his tone razor sharp now. This was worse than yelling. Because Aris doesn't yell. He turns cold. Exactly like how he is right now.

"Why? So you can keep building those theories that I don't want to be here?"I sneered.

"Nobody asked you to come here."

"Because I wasn't real here. If you hadn't shown your clear resentment for that every time I so much as mentioned my old life maybe you would know that."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah."

"You think I don't listen to you?"

"No. You don't,"I snapped.

"I have always-"
"No. Never about my past, and I never brought it up. I could tell that it was something you didn't like so I pushed it all down for you. Every single thing that has happened to me here has been for and because of you,"I interrupted.

"I remember everything you told me about-"
"What's college?"I asked.

"What?"

"What's a college?"I repeated.

"You never-"
"I did. You shut down though so I stopped."

"I guarantee that there's something more that I know,"He said firmly.

"What's my mom's name?"

"That's not-"
"Or my old best friends? My favorite subject? Favorite app? Social media? Shoes? Season? Grade? Holiday?"

"That's your old life,"He mumbled, looking away from me.

"You're shutting down again. You don't even know what most of those things are, do you?"

"I can't do this right now,"He murmered, putting on his jacket.

"You're going to leave? Because you don't like the truth? Is that it?"I asked. He didn't answer as he kept my back to me.

"I gave it all up. You may not like accepting it, but it was all for you. I knew you were my soulmate before we even met. I spent years trying to so much as get a glimpse of you. I went back and forth so many times, but I didn't stop. Now that I'm here you're just going to leave?"

"Maybe you shouldn't have come when you didn't actually know me."

"Are you kidding me? You just did it again. I said I went back and forth and you blocked it out. You block out everything that you don't want to hear."

"Do I?"He asked, still not facing me.

"I wouldn't have changed it Aris. Because it was the only way to be with you, but I miss it every now and then. I think about where I could be sometimes. I don't tell you because I know that thought hurts you."

"I wish you never told me at all,"He admitted.

"So do I."

"I don't actually know you, do I?"

"You do. Just not my past."

"But your past is important to you, isn't it?"

I didn't answer this time as I stared at the ground. The entire time he hadn't so much as glanced at me. We had both just stood there. Like I expected this ended the way it had before. It was something worse than a circle. Circles are an infinite and constant thing. They never truly end. That's what makes them so complex.

This wasn't a shape that could exist. There were random missing pieces that nobody wanted to acknowledge. Instead, you just focus on the parts that make sense and are visible because that's what's comfortable. It's the safe thing to do.

Unfortunately, at some point in shapes you start to see that there are more parts of them the older you get. The higher that you go in your education the more they teach you about the different names and type and even things that don't actually exist but have an explanation on paper.

This isn't quite like that though. We have so many amazing things. Sweet nights and words, small gestures and subtle hints of love that only made sense to us, and those little glances we had that got us through the day.

"I'm sorry,"He whispered.

"So am I,"I agreed, failing to hide that shakiness in my voice. It was so small that anyone would miss it, but he wouldn't. He never did miss little things like that.

Unless, he didn't want to hear them.

"I can't be around you right now. I just need to think about,"He trailed off.

"Us,"I finished for him.

"Yeah. Us."

Leaving me with those words, he walked out of the door.

I didn't cry as I raised my head and kept my eyes fixated on the door. Everything in my mind had gone blank, and this time there was no way to escape reality.

Aris's P.O.V

I know that I don't like the truth. Because the truth is that she gave up everything for me. To be with me. From Cranks, fighting WCKD, running through the Scorch, and the Flare, all of that pain was for me.

I don't want to be the reason that someone I love gets hurt. I don't want to admit that right now she could be at a home with family and friends lounging around in pajamas and laughing.

Something about that image though, scares me. Knowing that she could be happy to the point where she may have regretted this is terrifying.

I want her to do what's best for her, but I don't want to lose her. I don't want to let her go.

Maybe I just did though or maybe I didn't.

I guess I'd find out when I went back to our home and faced the reality of whatever would happen next.