Aris Jones X Reader One Shots

Forced (Part 3)

Aris's P.O.V

She's angry at me. I understand that. I understand why. How could she not hate me now? I had loved her with all I had, gave her every ounce of my being, just to kiss her and ignore her for months. That's not something that you can just forgive and forget.

She won't look at me. Even though it's just us in this room, she won't acknowledge that I exist. She just lays with her back to me and stares at the wall.

I don't know what to say. I don't know how to fix it. I don't know if I can.

"I'm sorry,"I whispered, breaking the disheartening silence.

"Okay,"She whispered back, still not looking at me.

"I never wanted to hurt you. I never would if I didn't have to."

"Okay,"She repeated.

"You never stopped being my world. Even if I'm not a part of yours."

"Okay,"She said at a normal volume, still not moving. While silence is normally fine, it just can't be right now. Not when she's forcing it. Not when it means I've pretty much lost her forever.

"I love you. I have always loved you, and I could never stop. I never wanted to, and I can't imagine any world where I would."

"Maybe the one where I say I never liked, loved you, or cared about you, that you're stupid if you think anyone could, kiss you in a way I never have, and then walk away? I'm sure that would work on anyone,"She said, her tone so rightfully bitter I could practically taste it.

"Y/N-"
"I'm doing what you said. You wanted me to remember that I hate you and wish the worst for you. You said that I wish I never met, spoke, held, kissed, or loved you. You said you would do anything for me even if it means you never get to have me. So why don't I make sure not to make this isn't harder than it already is by making sure that you don't get a second chance?"

"Y/N,"I whispered, a lump forming in my throat as tears filled my eyes. Trying to figure what to say, all I could do was realize his fucked up it is that even when we're out of the Spring, the restrictions of it never left. Almost as if we never left.

"Do you want to know what's the worst thing about this?"She asked through shaky breaths.

"No, but I need to, don't I?

"You told me to remember that you were cold and cruel when you broke my heart, but you weren't. You were so gentle, in a way only you could be. Only you could take something as awful as heartbreak and turn it into something that could be a song. Only you could describe a kiss like having heaven. Only you could mark my skin in a way that I never knew I needed. Only you could make me remember every word of a night that killed me with a bittersweet love. Nobody else could do those things, but you could do them without thinking. Because you're Aris. You're Aris, and I love you. And I always will be. Even when I try not to,"She whispered, turning over so that I could look at her tear streaked face. With dark circles that only seemed to have gotten worse, glassy eyes, and hurt gaze, it felt wrong that she could feel so broken yet still look so beautiful. It was almost unreal.

"You know what else sucked about that night?"

"Besides everything?"I genuinely asked.

"Yeah. Besides everything."

"A lot, and you're going to tell me it all. Because that's what you do. You hold it in and think about every last detail of the event until it's in some sort of order in your head. From most to least exciting, best to worst, or more painful to the most numbing, you go over it in a way nobody else does. Because that's you. That's always been you, and whether I'm there or not, it will never stop. And it shouldn't. Because there should never be a reason for the world to not have you here, with or without me."