Her and I ✩ Hailee Steinfeld (G!P) ✔️

XXXIV

| Hailee's POV |

Saying "I love you" to Y/N last night, felt like a dream.

I didn't want it to end, I wanted to tell her everyday how much I love her, how much she's changed me into this better person, how much happier I've felt, and how much I care for her. But I couldn't.

Not yet, at least.

I have a hard time expressing emotions, that tends to happen when you grow up in a household all your life where your parents constantly degrade you and the only person you ever had to cry on was your older brother. Yeah, sure my shitty childhood is the reason I am the way I am, but I am also fully confident in saying that Y/N has changed me.

For instance, I don't kill everyone. Well, I still have the strong urge to kill every guy who decides to approach my unofficial girlfriend. She's clearly mine and those idiotic perverts were completely oblivious.

Anyway, I needed help. Specific help to express my feelings towards Y/N. So that's what I was doing today.

"Who are you and what have you done with Hailee?" Flo asked jokingly, but I could tell she was surprised. I saw that coming, I've never really had romantic ties with anyone so this is a first for me. But I knew she was happy for me too, she's met Y/N already, and has already deeply expressed how sensitive she is but how much of an amazing person she is as well.

"No, it's actually me." I confirm, scratching the back of my neck as Flo sits down across from me. "She said "I love you", to me last night and I said it back." Flo smacked my arm in shock. "Dude! What the hell?!"

"Do you know what this means?!" Flo asked, her eyes looking wild and crazy as she stared me down. I shook my head, confused. "You need to fucking ask her out!" She exclaimed.

"What? Why? What if she says no? How do I even do that? What do I even do? What do I say? How should I say it? Isn't it too soon?" I start rambling and luckily, Flo stops me by placing her hands on my shoulders.

"Hailee, you and Y/N have been on and off for almost 6 months now. She celebrated your birthday with you! Hell, Christmas is right around the corner! Didn't you say you already got her a gift?" She raised her brows at me.

I dropped my shoulders, relaxing a bit. "I'm just scared, Flo." I admitted, barely above a whisper.

Her gaze softened, nodding in understanding. "I get that. This is all new to you. Y/N is a special girl, all I'm saying is don't let her go so easily." She suggested.

"I want to ask her to be my girlfriend." I confessed, looking up at the blonde. "Can you help me with that?" Flo looked at me, beginning to smirk, nodding as I could see a plan already hatching in her mind.

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"Mh this is a nice way to wake up." Y/N mumbled the next morning, feeling the kisses I began placing all over her body, admiring her softly. She glanced down at me, seeing me resting my chin on her chest.

"I have a surprise for you." I whispered, Y/N cupped my cheek with a smile, her other hand rubbing through my hair. "You can have it now, or we can get out of bed later so you can sleep a little more. I know how tired you've been lately."

She smiled at my thoughtfulness, something that's begun to grow on me since I've met this girl. "Thank you, baby, I would love to sleep in a little longer with you." I smiled back, moving up the bed to lay next to her, throwing my arms around her as she cuddled into my side, her hands tracing shapes on my chest now.

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"Is that a new cologne?" Y/N asked me as I adjusted the silver watch around my wrist, I smiled at her, nodding my head along.

"Yeah, do you like it?"

"I love it." She hummed, wrapping her arms around my shoulders, pushing herself against me as she rested her chin on my chest. "So, what's this surprise you said you have for me?"

"Mh, you'd have to come with me to find out." I say suspiciously and she looks at me with a curious smile as I slowly tug her onto the balcony of my bedroom. Y/N tilted her head at my actions, but I ignored her as I pushed her gently into the chair that was there.

"Hailee..." She trailed off, crossing her legs as she looked up at me, curiosity swirling in her brown eyes.

"I've been thinking. A lot." I start, resting against the railing of the balcony, staring off into the horizon. "About us, mostly." I add on and glance at Y/N, who only seemed more interested in what I had to say. I remembered everything me and Flo talked about. "I want to be yours."

Her brow raises in surprise, but Y/N remained silent as she waited for me to say more. I begin again, "I want to take you on dates, and wake up in bed with you everyday, now knowing that we belong to each other." I crouched down in front of her, taking her hands in mine as I avoid her gaze. "I'm not good at this, at all, but Y/N? I would love to be your girlfriend, and I'd love it if you could be my girlfriend too."

It was silent for a few moments before Y/N gently cupped my cheeks with both of her soft hands, pulling me up for a soft, slow kiss that had me melting in her arms. "Yes." She whispered on my lips, pulling away slightly to look me in the eye. "I want to be yours, I want you to be mine."

I smiled, and sighed in relief as Y/N giggled, pulling me up for another kiss, a little longer this time. It felt like I was on top of the world.