Her and I ✩ Hailee Steinfeld (G!P) ✔️

XXII

| Y/N's POV |

"HAILEE!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, watching her body plummet down. I hold onto my chest, my breathing becoming irregular as I fall to my knees, the tears came out uncontrollably. I could not stop crying, especially when I saw the state both Hailee and Billie were in. "Bill?" I whimpered, crawling over to her. "Billie? Please wake up." I pleaded.

She coughed up blood, her eyes fluttering open as she looked at me, struggling to stay awake. "Y/N/N..." She croaked out, shakily reaching her hand up for mine, I quickly grab it, clutching it to my chest with tears falling rapidly down my cheeks. "That's it. This is the end." Billie whispered, resting her head against the ground. "Just promise me... promise me you'll-" She fell into a coughing fit before continuing. "That you won't blame yourself and make sure... make sure Hailee's okay."

"No, Billie." I shook my head, grabbing her hand tighter as her grip loosened, her eyes fluttering closed. "Bill? Billie, please! Don't leave me! I need you, Bill, you're my best friend!" I scream, my emotions were raw.

"I-I'm just tired." Billie rambled, her hand going limp in mine as it fell on her chest lightly. "I'm going to rest now, Y/N/N. I love youu..." She slurred and tilted her head to the side before she was...

Gone.

"BILLIE! Pleaseeeee!" I cried, sobbing even harder than before as I cry my little heart out in her chest. I managed to lose the two most important people in my life in a matter of 24 hours.

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Coma. Hailee was in a coma. Her personal medics had arrived soon after the scene, Donovan was pronounced dead as well as Billie. My soul was crushed. I can't believe it, I won't believe it. I love Billie so much, she's been my best friend for years now and I didn't even get the chance to say 'I forgive you' and now I never will.

"Hailee will be okay." Flo placed a comforting hand on my shoulder, she was trying to calm me down but I could tell, she too, was freaking out herself. "She's strong, I'm praying too."

"C-can I just have a hug?" I looked up at her with pleading, vulnerable eyes. "Please." Flo's face softened, nodding in understanding as she wrapped her arms around me, pulling me into her chest. I cling to her, though I wish it was Hailee who I was hugging. I missed her scent, her small little smile that into came from me, her chuckle, her raspy morning voice, the way she made me feel during sex, her cuddles, her hugs, her kisses. Everything. We both silently let out quiet sobs, finding comfort in each other.

"B-before she killed Graves..." I began, pulling away, looking up at the blonde as we both sniffled, rubbing our tired eyes. "She said something that shocked me."

"What'd she say?" The older woman asked softly, making sure her voice was quiet and gentle. As if she spoke any louder, we would both blow up.

"She said "I love you"." I finished and Flo's eyes widened, but not surprise or shock, more like realization.

"I can't believe she said it." The blonde shook her head, "She'll be okay, Y/N." Flo looked at me empathetically, patting my shoulder softly before turning to look at Hailee, who was connecting to multiple machines, needing a respirator to breathe properly. "She'll be okay." She repeated, trying to convince herself that.

I rested my head on her shoulder, bringing a small amount of comfort to Hailee's best friend as well. Billie's funeral would have to be when Hailee wakes up, if she does, because in some way, I know Hailee cared for Billie.

"I'll give you some time." Flo nodded to Hailee's body, giving my hand a reassuring squeeze before leaving the medical room. I took a moment, looking at Hailee as I felt fresh tears reach my eyes. I walk towards the bed, sitting down as I take Hailee's cold, pale hand.

"Your doctor said you'd make it. She doesn't know when though." I stated to her, talking even if she couldn't hear me. I sniffled, "I'm hoping soon, because I really need you, Hailee. I wish I could say that I love you too, because I do, I really do." I cried quietly, I leaned over, resting my forehead on her chest. "Dr. Lewis said you had glass shards in your back and your stomach so that just means you'll have some cool scars..?" I try cheering myself up, but the truth was, seeing Hailee in this state really upset me.

I placed a shaky kiss to her forehead, a tear drop falling on her cheek, adding a little color to her pale cheeks as I leave the room, unable to control my tears and emotions, I disappeared into Hailee's bedroom. I immediately went to her closet, grabbing her oversized hoodie, sweats, and a tank top. I changed out my clothes completely, wearing Hailee's full outfit.

I let a few more tears and sniffles out, wiping my red, puffy eyes as I crawl into Hailee's bed, curling up with her blankets, wearing her clothes, laying my head on her pillows, while thinking of her only.