Well Dunn

Part 33

Time stops.

One second, two seconds, two minutes, three minutes, I loose the notion of time. 

I walk and walk around and around. I'm going into circles and then sit. But right after that I get up and walk around and around, I'm going into circles again.

It's so white around me that it gets scary. I'm going into circles and I'm loosing my mind. It's like nobody exists anymore, fear and worry are filling my mind. I stop and pray. I go into circles. Stop and pray. Circles. Stop. Pray. Stop. Pray. I sit.

" Can I see someone from Devesh Patel's family ?" got me out of my second state. I immediately get up but I realize that Kemi, and Devesh's mother also got up. The nurse looks at Kemi and I with a strange look. Kemi spats " We are family. Now tell me how is my brother." The brunette nurse ignores Kemi and replies to Devesh's mum with a smile " Would you mind following me ?" They then go.

We go back to our seats. Mahita is crying. Kemi is angry and I am scared. We can't even say a thing to each other, I just take Mahita in my arms. 

Later - I can't tell weither it was seconds or minutes or hours later because time stopped in my head- his mum came back with a faceless expression. I run towards her and ask " Is he okay ? " She breathes and answer " Go see for yourself."

I nod and ask for the number of the room. Once I got it, I head towards Devesh's room. Every step is scarier than the step before. " Is he okay ?" is the only sentence I can compose in my mind. 

I open the door. 

I see him. His eyes are opened but he is absent. He seems in such a bad shape. He is laying in the bed with so many machines linked to him that it makes me want to cry. I look for his hand and hold it. I hold it so tight that he says out loud " Dunn please stop, don't break my hand." I smile, so does he.

" Are you okay ?" is the first question that comes to my mind.

" I am okay. Please don't worry Jourdan." 

" Are you sure ?"

" Yes, I'm gonna be okay."

" How is your head ? Do we have to do an operation ? Is it really bad ? How do you feel ? Will you go home soon ?"

He smiles " Jourdan, it's gonna be okay. I'm alright. I collapsed but I'm back."

I hold his hand and whisper " Glory to The Lord, I was so scared."

He takes my hand and kiss it. He adds " Please don't worry for me. I'm good."

" Is there anything I could have done to avoid that ?"

" Nothing. You couldn't have done anything. I don't regret anything. It's okay Jourdan. I need some rest through."

I nod " If you need anything just name it. I'm sorry. "

He nods with closed eyes. I head to the door. 

" Stop worrying, Jodie. He's alright." 

I nod. 

" Sadie ! Jourdan ! Here ! " shouts Kemi. It's always surprising to see her picking us after school. I'm not used to see her in front of my school. We head towards her. We speak a bit and then we go to the hospital to visit Devesh. 

He looks better than yesterday. A lot better. I think that sleep helped him. He greets all of us. We sit and talk as if nothing particular happened. Kemi offers him his favorite candy bars. We talk about the new Drake album and about everything but Kemi's dad. 

We are way too good at hiding problems I guess.

But the thing is that hiding problems doesn't solve them.