Well Dunn

Part 27

" It's dangerous. "

" it's not. It's dangerous to stay in a place where you are not happy ! A place with an angry dad. Nobody who really cares. Danger is already here and I'm dying inside. Music is my dream. " She said with confidence.

" I understand why you want to go to London but what I don't get is why follow this guy ? "

" he is the key to the dream. " she whispers

I get up of my bed and find a Tshirt in my closet. I hand it to her. I brush my teeth and get ready to Go to bed. We go to bed and she whispers " Thank you. ". Few minutes later she fell asleep.

Kemi never fail to amazed me. She is free. She is wild. She doesnt care about taking risk. She does whatever she wants to do. She is strong. But as much as she is strong or show her strength I can feel that this is an act.

What I saw tonight, it wasn't the Kemi I used to see. It was the inner Kemi and I can tell that this Kemi is broke. Her dad. She needs to stay away from him. That's why she have to Go to London.

The fact that she admits that she needs me, that I was like a sis to her makes me smile too.

I close my eyes. Send a prayer to The Lord. And then sleep.

I open my eyes and I see Kemi sitting on my chair next to my desk. She is texting, I guess.

That's when it hit me. Where are all of her super duper boyfriends ?

" Kemi. Where's your boyfriend ? "

" I don't have a boyfriend for the moment. I don't know if I still want one. "

Who am I talking to ? Is it still Kemi ? I mean come on Kemi always have a boyfriend. So I ask her " why so ? "

She stares at her phone blankly " Because maybe they don't love me. It's not real. I want something real. I want love. "

" then what was it ? "

" Sex. Gifts. Little butterflies in my belly. But it wasn't the kind of love tha rip your heart off. The kind of love you cry for months when it's over. "

Kemi makes me sad. Really. I misjudged her. I judged her too quickly. Her life isn't easy too... As much as I hate her, don't trust her and don't want her friendship anymore, I feel sad for her. So, I nod and get out of bed. I make breakfast and we eat without a word.

Then I take my shower and she takes hers. She come back to my room. We look at each other, without a word. It's weird because she opens up to me like she never did but in the same time, I feel like there is still a distance between us both.

She stands up and say " Okay maybe i should go now. Thank you for your hospitality Jourdan. "

We hug each other. I walk her to the door and she leaves. It was fucking weird. And I start to feel bad... Motherless, beaten by her dad, no memorable love... In a way our friend group was all that she has.

That's when it hit me. What about Abel ? Since this day, I never heard about him. I don't know if he is still alive to be honest ? I mean the guy disappeared ! Devesh never talked to me about Abel too.

I don't know how I feel about Abel anymore ... This all thing, screw me up. Okay, maybe I'm overdoing this. But what happened still has some aftermaths on my feelings towards him. It was clear he didn't care about me. Why should I still be into him ? I don't even know why I liked him so much in the first place. Now, I want to be over him. To get over it. This whole stuff disgusted me too ...

So, I text Devesh and ask him out. Devesh is literally the best thing that happened to me this year. His birthday is coming up soon and I have something to make for him. I don't know what yet but I want him to know that I really care about him.