Trust Issues

Part 9

The only people actually talking to me were Lucie and Jessie but that was only when they weren't with the boys. The rest of the school avoided me like I was the plague and when I did come anywhere near they whispered, glared and teased. As for me in lessons, I sat on my own for the majority and when people spoke to me it was only to give me my work back to give me my grade. I wonder how my parents would feel if they saw me like this, that's one thing I'd hate; them finding out. That was one thing that was good about being at University, my parents would never find out any of my business and they would never ever need to know. They are probably sat at home right now, thinking about how I'm doing and what I'm doing. They probably think I've still never had a boyfriend, that everyone loves me and wants to be my friend, that I'm one of the nicest girls in the school and that everyone talks to me. They couldn't have been more wrong. 

I sat in the library, scribbling down some words into my lyrics book, my headphones in and my own little world starting to form. The song was coming together very well, the lyrics forming and the beat coming together. The song flowed and it said everything that I wanted to say. I don't know why I was writing this song, it wasn't exactly relevant and it wasn't going to be performed to anyone but it was the only way that I could express my true feelings and say everything that I wanted to say. I tapped my foot against the desk as the beat started to become catchy.

"The library is closing now I'm afraid"

I removed the earphone from my ear and looked up at the librarian smiling over me. I returned her smile.

"Thankyou, I'm very sorry, I'll get moving now"

"It's getting late, you should go to bed"

"I will thankyou"

I picked up my folders and shoved them in my bag, the papers scrumpling up. Picking up my bag, I said one last goodnight to the Librarian and made my way over to the room. It was pitch black and the stars shone like little diamonds in the sky. As I walked, the stars mezmorised me as I gazed up at them, my head tilted back as I walked. I returned my head to the normal position and started to walk forwards, humming the tune of my song as it played over and over in my mind.  

"Oi, bitch!" shouted a voice from behind me.

That voice was unmistakable, that evil accent and that smell growing nearer and nearer making me want to be sick.

"What do you want Sophie?" I asked, sighing and turning around to face her.

 Sophie was closer than I expected her to be, her breath warm on my face.

"You know damn well what I want"

"I know you lied, turned the whole school against me and what for Sophie, what for?"

"Oh I know damn well I lied, you could never have pushed me over"

I sighed, why could she admit it to me but not the rest of the school.

"Sophie, what do you want?"

"I want you to back off from my boyfriend, that's what I want"

"I haven't been near Josh"

"Oh I saw you talking to him!"

"When?"

"That night, when he went out of the medical room, just back off ok"

That was when she pushed me, pushed me so hard making me fall to the floor, the gravel cutting my hands making them bleed. I heard her cackling as she stood over me.

"And for the record, no one will ever believe you if you tell them this, especially not Josh, now go and crawl back into your sad little hole with your depressing little life"